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I'm ready for the mocking but as this is a social support forum I thought this was as good a place to post as any. I just need to get this off my chest. 23 year old Indian American guy. I never quite felt this way before but my lack of interaction with the fairer sex is really starting to get to me. To be entirely open I'm quite damned short (thanks mom and dad). I'm about the same height as the average woman at a tad over 5ft 4. Throughout HS and college I was quite overweight as well. Thankfully, just due to wanting to keep up my health, I've lost nearly all of that extra weight with a few more pounds to go during the gap year I'm in. I'm even starting to look muscular in a lot of my clothing, which I've been updating to reflect that I'll be entering professional school and that it's about time I stopped dressing like a middle schooler.
Throughout HS and college my lack of experience didn't bother me too much. I got busy with academics and ECs and I truly enjoyed those things. My family didn't have much and I felt an internal drive to push hard and catapult myself into a prestigious undergrad and now a prestigious med school. I should have focused on myself more and found the time to engage in relationships or flings but what's past is past unfortunately.
Over this past gap year, particularly since the interview season has ended and I left my job to have a relaxed summer, I've just felt a bit down about all this. I've been hanging out with friends, doing a few hours of part time work, going to the gym, but these thoughts do creep into my head.
I like to think I'm a well spoken guy with a decent sense of humor (when you're short and fat you get good at dishing out jokes). Besides being short, I think I'm decent in the looks department. It sure would be nice to have someone. Even more than the physical aspect of things, it would be nice to have someone to share experiences with (on a deeper level than friends can provide). Part of me says to myself hey you're 23 and you have done well for yourself. You've got a lot to be proud of. Part of me feels a bit lost and pretty damn lonely.
I hope someone in med school or the undergrad I'll be near come August is open to someone like me. I'm simultaneously hopeful and pessimistic. No idea if anyone has ever felt similarly?
Throughout HS and college my lack of experience didn't bother me too much. I got busy with academics and ECs and I truly enjoyed those things. My family didn't have much and I felt an internal drive to push hard and catapult myself into a prestigious undergrad and now a prestigious med school. I should have focused on myself more and found the time to engage in relationships or flings but what's past is past unfortunately.
Over this past gap year, particularly since the interview season has ended and I left my job to have a relaxed summer, I've just felt a bit down about all this. I've been hanging out with friends, doing a few hours of part time work, going to the gym, but these thoughts do creep into my head.
I like to think I'm a well spoken guy with a decent sense of humor (when you're short and fat you get good at dishing out jokes). Besides being short, I think I'm decent in the looks department. It sure would be nice to have someone. Even more than the physical aspect of things, it would be nice to have someone to share experiences with (on a deeper level than friends can provide). Part of me says to myself hey you're 23 and you have done well for yourself. You've got a lot to be proud of. Part of me feels a bit lost and pretty damn lonely.
I hope someone in med school or the undergrad I'll be near come August is open to someone like me. I'm simultaneously hopeful and pessimistic. No idea if anyone has ever felt similarly?