Hey all,
Long-time reader, first-time poster 🙂 I've done a fair bit of searching on this topic and nothing truly addressed my specific situation!
I'm currently a practicing PA x4.5 years with my time split 50/50 between ER and ICU (our hospital is trialing an "upstairs care downstairs" model, so there's a lot of crossover). I have a fair bit of autonomy ranging from the initial resuscitation, lines, running codes and (rarely) airway management. It's great and all but often feels a bit protocolized at times with LOTS of physician oversight (as it should be in this environment); some individuals at the hospital refer to us as "the tacticians, not the strategists." Nevertheless, it's a good gig--sounds crazy to want to leave and take on a huge financial/time commitment, right? Hear me out.
I wanted to go to med school initially in undergrad. Graduated with chem degree, 4.0 GPA and completed all pre-reqs for med school. I was killing it. My husband and I were married pretty young (20) and we (intentionally) had a kid at 23. All was well until little one was unexpectedly dx'd with Down Syndrome the year before I graduated (lots and lots of doctors, therapies, surgeries...).
Everything was overwhelming at that time and the thought of entering med school/residency/fellowship was pretty much impossible in my mind. I abandoned my dream, bit the bullet and used my prereqs to get into PA school so I'd be able to finish faster, support our little one and have time to be home. In hindsight, was this the smartest choice? Probably....definitely not. I'm aware of the mistakes I made but it's done and it made perfect sense to me at the time.
Now that I'm in my 30s, I find myself completely dissatisfied with my work life. I can give 500 logical reasons/arguments if needed but I really don't want to take the thread in that direction. The bottom line is that I'm just not happy and I KNOW that I want to go the MD route (and have for a long time). Love the patients, love the medicine but I hit a glass ceiling at 2 years; I certainly can't do this forever.
I gave up on my dreams.
Now that I'm older/wiser, have more support & the little one is more self-sufficient I feel ready to start again. Anyone else out there make the PA-->MD switch?
Next steps will be refreshing all that basic science knowledge and studying for the MCAT...
Someone tell me I'm not crazy.
In hindsight we are all geniuses.
It just irritates me to no extent that people start the conversation with lifetime earnings and how much time has been lost and how much you will expect to earn and how much debt will be.
Ridiculous.
What are you supposed to do "work out" the rest of your life and be miserable because "fiances are not heavily in your favor". So much more to life than money.
There are doctors who make a ton of money and are miserable. Money is not the end all be all argument. It's not even a conversation that needs to be had when it comes to doing something you found a passion for in life. Yup I used the "p" word. Cliche yes.
What if you were an athlete and lost a leg and couldn't compete anymore so you wanted to dedicate your life to treating people with birth defects so that they could have a future in athletics. Is that it no should not do it because "money". Life experience is valuable, it is INVALUABLE.
What if you go into medicine and invent something new because of your experience as a PA. What if you become an administrator and help the hospital become more efficient and lower health costs. What if you get a scholarship. What if you win the lottery. Isn't it more rewarding to accomplish something rather than looking at you savings account for the rest of your life?
What if you have debt and love what you're doing. Terrible. How awful.
Being older you can manage it better and get better loan percentages. Some of the younger students don't even know how to manage debt and go well into their 40's and 50's with debt. But so what who cares if you have debt or lost income as long as you feel like you are making a difference and enjoying your life.
I can't tell you how irritated I am by "money considerations" arguments. Maybe I can, is it coming across? I hate this argument because it is myopic and narrow minded and doesn't consider the humanistic side, which is PURPOSE. To have purpose is more important than any amount of money. Money doesn't even mean anything. I am going to implode "millennial literally" from this abstract and absurd concept of "money".
Nothing would be built or invented if people had ABSOLUTELY FAILPROOF NO QUESTIONS NO DOUBT WILL BE MILLIONAIRE plans. Be an entrepreneur of your own life not a slave to making decisions based on money. We grow, we change, our interests evolve, our philosophy changes, we are not static beings. What is money anyway? A thing that was invented from us destroying ourselves for resources.
Yes finances are a "thing" but at the end of it what do you want to accomplish? Save money or provide something to the world. The way our politics are right now a dollar today is not a dollar tomorrow. Do something you enjoy day to day. That's what any profession is about. If you hate yours now then what's the point of it? Just to "exist"? We are not robots that can mindlessly perform same task over and over without exhaustion or question as to the purpose of it.