A month and a half ago, I started a new full-time job at the hospital of which I've worked for 8 years. With graduate school coming to an end this spring, it was hard to turn down the new opportunity in terms the pay increase is very competitive from my previous role. Furthermore, it would provide me valuable experience towards becoming a future med student and physician. Unfortunately, I went from working 2 days/wk to 4-10 hr days, usually noon til 10 or 11p. This certainly has made studying for the MCAT a bit difficult to do after a hard evening at work and change in sleep in pattern(getting up at 5a daily prior to this job was no problem). I do tell myself to get up and try to do at least a couple of hours on those days before going in.
With the MCAT coming up, I've told myself to be confident and I will do well. Yet, part of me still wonders 'what if I don't score well?' Do I give up my job and take 3 months off to study for it again? A professor, made the suggestion to me just recently that I take time off. I responded with 'who's gonna pay my bills?' I do have a nice 401k built up from which I never wanted to touch and reserving for absolute emergencies. Yet, maybe this could be classifed as one. Another concern is that although I've been on good terms and a good employee, they don't necessarily have to hire me back once I've done my studying. Also, the scores for the May exam won't be released until after the June exam has taken place. By the time I get my scores, I would be S.O.L. when it comes to retaking it and being able to apply into this cycle still. Maybe I'm just letting negative thoughts creep in but I've always been a prepare-for-all possibilities type of person in order to reach my end goal.
With the MCAT coming up, I've told myself to be confident and I will do well. Yet, part of me still wonders 'what if I don't score well?' Do I give up my job and take 3 months off to study for it again? A professor, made the suggestion to me just recently that I take time off. I responded with 'who's gonna pay my bills?' I do have a nice 401k built up from which I never wanted to touch and reserving for absolute emergencies. Yet, maybe this could be classifed as one. Another concern is that although I've been on good terms and a good employee, they don't necessarily have to hire me back once I've done my studying. Also, the scores for the May exam won't be released until after the June exam has taken place. By the time I get my scores, I would be S.O.L. when it comes to retaking it and being able to apply into this cycle still. Maybe I'm just letting negative thoughts creep in but I've always been a prepare-for-all possibilities type of person in order to reach my end goal.
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