Hello-
I applied to Clinical Psychology PhD programs last year, and was accepted into three. I have two main research interests, which unfortunately could not have both been satisfied at one institution. Two of the programs I was accepted into were very prestigious, in metropolitan areas offering research that significantly overlapped with one of my main two, but lacked the clinical training I thought I really wanted. The last school was at much lower-ranked program is a small city/rural area, with a very well-known advisor in one of my research areas. This school came highly recommended from my prior university. I, painfully, chose the last option because of the higher quality clinical training, despite sitting on these offers for months. I thought the in-house clinical opportunities were rarer, and more important.
I'm here now, and really struggling. The location is a much bigger issue than expected (I'm an older student, who was dead-set on moving to a big city and want that in my future) and the program/school is disorganized. My quality-of-life feels low. I also feel out-of-place, because I'm realizing my other interest isn't being fostered here. Having that interest nurtured was a bigger need than I had thought when I was making decisions. I have the double-edged sword of coming from an elite university that was well-organized, valued diversity in its education, and offered tremendous resources and a sense of community, and knew there would be challenges moving to a state school with a different MO and way of operating.
In short, I feel like I picked the wrong school. It seems I made a rational, narrowed decision, as opposed to listening to my gut. I feel sad and deeply unhappy, despite it being only my second week here. I'm struggling to reconcile myself with the supposedly common belief that grad school is hard, no school can meet all your needs, and you just have to tough it out for XXXX (LONG) years. Life feels too short to not be truly happy, and just "manage" or "get by."
Has anyone felt similarly? If so, have you transferred? What did that process look like? How/when did you know it was time to go? Are you happier now? I'm hesitant to do so, since my advisor is a big name in his field, and I'm concerned questions or flags would be raised if I applied to a program presenting myself the same way. I just wish I'd chosen one of the other schools.
Any help (empathetic or otherwise) would be truly appreciated. PMs work as well.
Thanks.
I applied to Clinical Psychology PhD programs last year, and was accepted into three. I have two main research interests, which unfortunately could not have both been satisfied at one institution. Two of the programs I was accepted into were very prestigious, in metropolitan areas offering research that significantly overlapped with one of my main two, but lacked the clinical training I thought I really wanted. The last school was at much lower-ranked program is a small city/rural area, with a very well-known advisor in one of my research areas. This school came highly recommended from my prior university. I, painfully, chose the last option because of the higher quality clinical training, despite sitting on these offers for months. I thought the in-house clinical opportunities were rarer, and more important.
I'm here now, and really struggling. The location is a much bigger issue than expected (I'm an older student, who was dead-set on moving to a big city and want that in my future) and the program/school is disorganized. My quality-of-life feels low. I also feel out-of-place, because I'm realizing my other interest isn't being fostered here. Having that interest nurtured was a bigger need than I had thought when I was making decisions. I have the double-edged sword of coming from an elite university that was well-organized, valued diversity in its education, and offered tremendous resources and a sense of community, and knew there would be challenges moving to a state school with a different MO and way of operating.
In short, I feel like I picked the wrong school. It seems I made a rational, narrowed decision, as opposed to listening to my gut. I feel sad and deeply unhappy, despite it being only my second week here. I'm struggling to reconcile myself with the supposedly common belief that grad school is hard, no school can meet all your needs, and you just have to tough it out for XXXX (LONG) years. Life feels too short to not be truly happy, and just "manage" or "get by."
Has anyone felt similarly? If so, have you transferred? What did that process look like? How/when did you know it was time to go? Are you happier now? I'm hesitant to do so, since my advisor is a big name in his field, and I'm concerned questions or flags would be raised if I applied to a program presenting myself the same way. I just wish I'd chosen one of the other schools.
Any help (empathetic or otherwise) would be truly appreciated. PMs work as well.
Thanks.