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Hello,
This is going to be a pretty long backstory, so I’m going to get straight to it. I started community college at age 14, I was homeschooled, and my mother thought it would be a good idea. It wasn't. While I still did some classes at home, and those grades were quite good, I'll be honest, the grades through the college are awful. It's currently at 2.25, and I'm not taking any more classes.
However, it's not as cut and dry as that. I have a nerve disease (I’ve seen various specialists. The exact diagnosis has never been agreed upon, but CIDP and Charcot-Marie Tooth are kicked around a lot) that I've struggled with all my life. My entire time in community college, it escalated again (I had experienced a brief dormancy of it) that only ended a few months ago. It without a doubt effected my performance. I had constant doctors’ appointments, and we had to tinker with my meds for years, causing me to go in and out of withdrawals (from my legally prescribed meds) causing extreme weakness, fever, nausea, etc. I missed some classes, and even when I didn't, for obvious reasons, my schooling took a hit. I suspect my homeschool grades were better because I could do them when I wasn't collapsed in my bed, or at the hospital, whereas at the community college, the deadlines and class times didn't care about my condition. When I did go to class, I often had to leave lectures due to sudden waves of nausea. With my homeschool classes, if I had a lot of doctors’ appointments, or was sick, I could do my class, as in the lectures and tests and labs, either at a different time on the same day, or push it to the next weekend, or do it the weekend before, pre-emptively. This allowed me to do much better grade wise, because having an appointment didn’t mean missing an entire 3 hour lecture of information.
While my grades are bad, my last two semesters saw C's and Bs, an improvement from my D's and F's. This is where my condition began to get better, though not fully, and I could apply myself more. However, the semester before last (my first improvement) my family moved, which took up huge amounts of time and mental energy, especially as the move gave me a new step mother and two twin 7 year old step sisters. On top of that, while I had improved, it wasn't fully. Last semester, which was also an improvement, I found out the first week of school that I need spinal surgery (which was performed in early Feb.) I needed several weeks to recover. Because I was gone for those weeks, I missed many points that were only available during the weeks I was gone. When I got back to that class, I did very well, got A's on the tests that had happened while I was recovering (which I was allowed to take on my return) and got an A on my final, because I studied intensively during and after my recovery. I also completed my accelerated English course. At this time I was still having issues with my condition. It finally stabilized in early summer.
Throughout these 4 years, my mother split apart from my other mother (I was raised by two women, to clarify), and the mother who I'm still talking to (We'll call her T) got a new partner, who she moved in with (bringing me along) who also has two twins. My other mother (We'll call her C) did some emotionally neglectful/abusive things to me in which the details aren't really important, but it was very hard for me. I used a therapist extensively to work through it, but from 14-18 was a very dark time for me because of that, on top of my physical issues.
To be clear, I'm not trying to make excuses. I could have tried harder, or stood up to my mom and told her college needed to wait. I could have done a lot of things, but at the time, I didn't see them.
So, now, for my question. I’m 18, and finally looking at universities. When I combine my grade with my CC grade, it definitely gets better (CC classes only supplemented my homeschooling, so I have some homeschool grades to raise it up), but the exact number isn’t one I’m sure on until my mother figures out how she’s supposed to weight homeschool grades. I’m planning on getting an undergrad in Political Science, as it’s a topic I’m very passionate about. Is Allopathic med school something that just isn’t possible for me anymore? If I do very well in my undergrad, and do well on my MCAT, would my CC transcript still be enough to haunt me and prevent me from being an MD, no matter how I play my future?. Failure isn’t an option for me, and I’ve had a lot of people tell me med school isn’t possible, and MD certainly isn’t. I want to be a doctor, and I’m willing to do whatever it takes to get there. But I’m going through a particularly bad period, especially due to a lot of people being less than supportive. I’m extremely driven to prove them wrong, but I’m starting to become concerned that no matter what I do, MD med schools will laugh my application into the dumpster.
Thanks in advance for any input.
This is going to be a pretty long backstory, so I’m going to get straight to it. I started community college at age 14, I was homeschooled, and my mother thought it would be a good idea. It wasn't. While I still did some classes at home, and those grades were quite good, I'll be honest, the grades through the college are awful. It's currently at 2.25, and I'm not taking any more classes.
However, it's not as cut and dry as that. I have a nerve disease (I’ve seen various specialists. The exact diagnosis has never been agreed upon, but CIDP and Charcot-Marie Tooth are kicked around a lot) that I've struggled with all my life. My entire time in community college, it escalated again (I had experienced a brief dormancy of it) that only ended a few months ago. It without a doubt effected my performance. I had constant doctors’ appointments, and we had to tinker with my meds for years, causing me to go in and out of withdrawals (from my legally prescribed meds) causing extreme weakness, fever, nausea, etc. I missed some classes, and even when I didn't, for obvious reasons, my schooling took a hit. I suspect my homeschool grades were better because I could do them when I wasn't collapsed in my bed, or at the hospital, whereas at the community college, the deadlines and class times didn't care about my condition. When I did go to class, I often had to leave lectures due to sudden waves of nausea. With my homeschool classes, if I had a lot of doctors’ appointments, or was sick, I could do my class, as in the lectures and tests and labs, either at a different time on the same day, or push it to the next weekend, or do it the weekend before, pre-emptively. This allowed me to do much better grade wise, because having an appointment didn’t mean missing an entire 3 hour lecture of information.
While my grades are bad, my last two semesters saw C's and Bs, an improvement from my D's and F's. This is where my condition began to get better, though not fully, and I could apply myself more. However, the semester before last (my first improvement) my family moved, which took up huge amounts of time and mental energy, especially as the move gave me a new step mother and two twin 7 year old step sisters. On top of that, while I had improved, it wasn't fully. Last semester, which was also an improvement, I found out the first week of school that I need spinal surgery (which was performed in early Feb.) I needed several weeks to recover. Because I was gone for those weeks, I missed many points that were only available during the weeks I was gone. When I got back to that class, I did very well, got A's on the tests that had happened while I was recovering (which I was allowed to take on my return) and got an A on my final, because I studied intensively during and after my recovery. I also completed my accelerated English course. At this time I was still having issues with my condition. It finally stabilized in early summer.
Throughout these 4 years, my mother split apart from my other mother (I was raised by two women, to clarify), and the mother who I'm still talking to (We'll call her T) got a new partner, who she moved in with (bringing me along) who also has two twins. My other mother (We'll call her C) did some emotionally neglectful/abusive things to me in which the details aren't really important, but it was very hard for me. I used a therapist extensively to work through it, but from 14-18 was a very dark time for me because of that, on top of my physical issues.
To be clear, I'm not trying to make excuses. I could have tried harder, or stood up to my mom and told her college needed to wait. I could have done a lot of things, but at the time, I didn't see them.
So, now, for my question. I’m 18, and finally looking at universities. When I combine my grade with my CC grade, it definitely gets better (CC classes only supplemented my homeschooling, so I have some homeschool grades to raise it up), but the exact number isn’t one I’m sure on until my mother figures out how she’s supposed to weight homeschool grades. I’m planning on getting an undergrad in Political Science, as it’s a topic I’m very passionate about. Is Allopathic med school something that just isn’t possible for me anymore? If I do very well in my undergrad, and do well on my MCAT, would my CC transcript still be enough to haunt me and prevent me from being an MD, no matter how I play my future?. Failure isn’t an option for me, and I’ve had a lot of people tell me med school isn’t possible, and MD certainly isn’t. I want to be a doctor, and I’m willing to do whatever it takes to get there. But I’m going through a particularly bad period, especially due to a lot of people being less than supportive. I’m extremely driven to prove them wrong, but I’m starting to become concerned that no matter what I do, MD med schools will laugh my application into the dumpster.
Thanks in advance for any input.