here are my responses:
1) i always knew i wanted to be a doctor. i got into med school, started shadowing to figure out what type (one rarely thinks what type in college or high school). my first week i saw a four year old die. it hurt a lot; i couldnt study, couldnt sleep, couldnt think, couldnt eat. i had to question my purpose in life, what the hell i was doing, and the point of it all. it was the first time i saw someone die. when i finally got through it, i got back into shadowing doctors weekly, throw myself as much as I could as a student. i didn't want any more surprises. it taught me the type of person i was, and what i liked. neurosurgery isn't the only field i'm in love with. i like transplant, trauma, and CT too. it's a neurosurgery forum, so i dont talk about the other stuff. i've seen as much as possible as a med student; i realize how competitive neurosurgery is, and, sadly, if it took me till year four to figure that out, i wouldnt have nearly as many publications, papers, chapters, and connections as i do now.
2) no one knows my specialty of choice. its an anonymous forum, so what's wrong with sharing my current thoughts anonymously? obviously if i decide that neurosurgery wasnt the best choice, well, i'd never be back on this forum again and it wouldnt be any sweat off my back. (i created this account because i had many questions, now i just use it whenever)
3) never said i'd get in. i did say i love it, and i'm going to try. that's all we can do, right?
4) i never said i cant contribute in any field of medicine. egotistical? maybe a little bit; i know whatever field i go into i'll be damn good at it. besides, these days prestige is associated moreso with money, and mohs pays the highest hourly rate. i define prestige differently, and who doesnt want to be proud of themselves? a field i like where i can respect myself? seems logical to me...
i think it's a cop out to specialize in skin disorders or learn about the entire body to only operate on a one centimeter by one centimeter eye. but ophtho and derm are prestigious fields, and i admire them because i know theyre intelligent, hardworking people who are skilled at the surgeries they do. is it for me? i dont think so.
ortho is prestigious among us, but still they are characterized as oversized idiotic apes with no knowledge of anything except being a failed ex-athlete. yet, i still have debates whether i should try for ortho...and i'm not even very athletic, save weightlifting
5) i gave a laundry list of reasons i liked neurosurgery. yes, prestige is one, but you focused only on the prestige. when we were in high school we all had trouble answering teh question why we wanted to go to _____ college. then we had to answer why we wanted to be a doctor, and why _____ medical school.
variety of ops, cool surgeries, breakthrough technology, opps for research, actually saving lives, and the brain is cool. surrounded by other intense people like you, constantly pushing you, demanding the best. its prestigious too.
feel free to read the other reasons when you get a chance instead of focusing on just one