The answers to your questions, powermd (except where this all went down). By the way, I knew that this conversation was going to go this way with my reply post - it was inevitable, but I'm tired of hiding this story.
powermd said:
You sound like you wanted to freely admit you care about the money.
No. Look, this is NOT a money issue. What it IS and always HAS BEEN is a hypocrisy issue. People don't want the truth - they want you to tell them what they want to hear. And whoever is best at it wins. You've seen it in college, you've seen it in medical school, you've seen it in residency, and you'll see it everywhere. I know that, so don't bother telling me "that's life". The point is that people in medicine PRETEND that they don't do that stuff. They all dance around pretending that money is anathema to them and that people who money matters to are heathens and jerkos.
powermd said:
Maybe you should have had a conversation with one of these doctors to discuss your feelings about non-compliant patients, etc.
Are you out of your mind? No way. I've talked about it with attendings a few times, but as soon as I even INTIMATE that I think patients are being silly for not being compliant and landing back in the hospital for the seventeenth admission, I get frowning looks of disapproval. I took care of an end-stage COPD patient on home O2 who was admitted for COPD exacerbation. We found out that she was still smoking in the hospital (on oxygen) and that her KIDS - who cared sooo much about her and were demanding that we "cure her" - were giving her the smokes because "we just can't refuse her! We're not animals, after all!" Hey, pay for the admission because society shouldn't foot your bill, kids. The attending for her was sympathetic to my viewpoint, but also reprimanded me for "not understanding" her.
powermd said:
I don't believe what you thought you saw actually happend to a significant degree. Those docs would be sued to death by now if any of that were true over a significant period of time.
Wrong. First of all, I don't have a personality disorder ...more on that in a moment. Yes, I can see how you would just say, oh, it's crazy ol' kinetic and his wacky hallucinations. I understand. But many attendings and residents concurred with my assessment even AFTER I was fired - BUT they said that there was no way to change the system. "What, you want us to fire the whole ED? Shut down the hospital? People get their patients from the ED, so you'll never get that done." Why were there no lawsuits? Two reasons.
1) AFTER we would come and evaluate the patient, ED attendings would dictate their stuff off that, so it showed that their "thinking" was along the lines of the consultants - and who can be faulted for that? I got to the point where I wrote my assessment and then carried it around with me as LONG as possible before placing it on the chart. If I knew a patient was being admitted, I'd wait until they hit the floor to do that. Was I being antagonistic? Yes - I told you that I admit I was being a jacka$$. But the point is that what I was doing should IN THEORY not have disturbed anyone. The ED docs IN THEORY don't need the assessment, just the admission orders.
2) They butts were covered by the other services. I literally heard an attending say (regarding a patient with "abdominal pain"), "OK, we need to call Surgery and if they don't want it call GI and if they don't want it call Medicine." Meanwhile, he had NO clue what was going on with the patient and he didn't care. Nothing happened to the patient IN THIS INSTANCE because someone came to evaluate them. When something DID happen, either it was corrected or played off as a complication of the disease process. I saw a patient come in ACTIVELY infarcting, with EKG changes that EVOLVED and positive markers. They sat in the ED and they WATCHED him infarct with no intervention. He ended up in the ICU. Were the Cardiologists mad? You bet. Did they raise an OFFICIAL stink? Nope. They just shook their heads and laughed in derision.
powermd said:
Don't you think it's about time you started asking "is the world crazy, or is it just me?"
I wouldn't be a sane person if I didn't question EVERY DAY and TO THIS DAY whether I was in the right or in the wrong. I have doubts about EVERYTHING I experienced and did and witnessed. I talked about it with friends, colleagues, attendings ...everyone. The question raised at interviews and that I have raised with myself is "well, why isn't everyone else mad?" Oh, they bitch - that's all the chiefs do is field complaints about the ED. During our bi-monthly residents meeting, all we would do is bitch about it for an hour, stopping only because we had to return to work. One resident even used his VACATION time to organize all of the blank ED charts we had photocopied (that's what we're told to do when they don't document anything, including vitals and labs - Xerox it "for evidence" that is never used). We have literally hundreds of charts. But nothing will ever be done with them because, as I learned, the ED has a lot of political clout and my department had none. But the exercise helped residents FEEL like something would be done, which appeased them. And a lot of people had the opinion, "hey, we're only here for x years and then f--- this place. Who cares if it falls to s---?" I couldn't do that. My dad died because of a medical error that could have been avoided. I'm not going to say f--- someone just because I'M moving on. If that's a personality disorder to you, then fine. We're supposed to give two craps about taking care of patients, but apparently to a lot of people (and I'm not implying powermd), that comes second to covering for the medical profession because "we all gotta get paid".