I am 4th medical student.
I should be really happy and stressing about interviews and all that stuff but Im not. In fact, I haven't even applied yet. I dont even know if I want to apply, either this year or in the future. I can't settle on a specialty choice. I cannot really say that any particular field "drew" special interest b'c that just never happend for me(but i did like all of my rotations alot)
the way i see medicine being practiced is so different from what i imagined. mostly every field i run is practicing "defensive medicine". pts can dictate what tests they want to do,whether they are indicated or not, pts can demand meds whether they need them or not. and if they are not appeased, they can complain about you.if you rack up enough complaints, then u;ll eventually be fired. everyone is so worried about being sued, its sickening.
and everyone is bugging me asking me what field im applying into ..so to get them off my back i say im applying to medicine, which may be what ends up happening. but ive started having serious nightmares about being a pcp b'c i knew if i did that ,id end up being miserable.
to top things off, i am not pleased with my medical education; i really dont feel like ive "mastered" anything, in fact, now i just find it hard to focus and concentrate at all, i cant even read for an hr b4 being distracted bysomething else, with just an md im good for nothing, unless i complete residency..
on the rotation im on right now(peds) i see alot of the senior residents applying for jobs, so far they are all out of luck. to me, thats absolutely terrifying, think about it.
4 yrs of ugrad+4 yrs of med + 3++ yrs of residency= no job
what a waste of time
why oh why didn't i just do engineering or law?
I should be really happy and stressing about interviews and all that stuff but Im not. In fact, I haven't even applied yet. I dont even know if I want to apply, either this year or in the future. I can't settle on a specialty choice. I cannot really say that any particular field "drew" special interest b'c that just never happend for me(but i did like all of my rotations alot)
the way i see medicine being practiced is so different from what i imagined. mostly every field i run is practicing "defensive medicine". pts can dictate what tests they want to do,whether they are indicated or not, pts can demand meds whether they need them or not. and if they are not appeased, they can complain about you.if you rack up enough complaints, then u;ll eventually be fired. everyone is so worried about being sued, its sickening.
and everyone is bugging me asking me what field im applying into ..so to get them off my back i say im applying to medicine, which may be what ends up happening. but ive started having serious nightmares about being a pcp b'c i knew if i did that ,id end up being miserable.
to top things off, i am not pleased with my medical education; i really dont feel like ive "mastered" anything, in fact, now i just find it hard to focus and concentrate at all, i cant even read for an hr b4 being distracted bysomething else, with just an md im good for nothing, unless i complete residency..
on the rotation im on right now(peds) i see alot of the senior residents applying for jobs, so far they are all out of luck. to me, thats absolutely terrifying, think about it.
4 yrs of ugrad+4 yrs of med + 3++ yrs of residency= no job
what a waste of time
why oh why didn't i just do engineering or law?