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To me, it sounds like you worked very hard to get to the point that you will be an excellent candidate, and, as you are on the verge of going forward, you are having second thoughts due to the sacrifices involved and the possibility of reduced future income as compared to those who came before you. This is valid.Hi all, this is partly to vent and throw my thoughts out into the open, but also to receive some advice from the community.
As background: I'm a pre-med applying this cycle with an app I've worked very hard on (3.95GPA, 525 MCAT, >1000 hrs of clinical/research exp, 100s of volunteer hours, the works etcetc.)
Lately, I've been thinking very hard about this path and whether it's right for me or not (I'm not sure there's a way to really know 100%).
It's not that I don't think I would like being a doctor. Based off of my clinical experiences and my values, I think I would LOVE being a doctor (the greatest pulls for me is the direct personal interaction the job involves, the privelege of being intimately involved in others' lives to make a difference, and being able to have a positive impact on people's lives/my community/the world). And now just as I'm applying I'm getting cold feet again.
Why? Well a few disruptive and intrusive realizations/thoughts have been wracking my brain constantly for the last few days (haven't slept well in a week...)
I honestly think I have a terrible terrible case of "grass is greener" syndrome... To re-iterate, I am still convinced that I would love being a physician and clinical practice, but I worried that, in this one life that I have, there could be something else for me as well and committing to medicine will mean I will never have a chance to explore.
- Sacrificing freedom/independence in my 20s/30s: The majority of my friends are in SWE (software engineers), consulting, IB. I have 2 premed friends I'm very close with, and a few current med student friends I'm less close with. While the path to medicine has always seemed glorious to me, I am (quite frankly) jealous of my friends when I hear them talk about their plans. My current view is that if I'm going to continue down this path, I would love to eventually arrive at clinical practice, but I fear that I am restricting myself to never doing anything outside of medicine up until the point I die. I hear my friends saying they plan to move jobs every 2 years (something I see as terrible honestly; as I hate applying for stuff) or plan to switch careers (e.g. going from tech->product management or consulting->starting a business; this seems cool to me). In the path to being a physician, that freedom to move around and liberally carve one's professional path as you go just does not seem to exist. Correct me if I'm wrong.
- Rise of the mid-levels and decreasing respect/autonomy for physicians: I understand that this should NOT be a sole motivator for going into medicine, but I will admit that the prestige/respect involved with being a doctor is one thing that made medicine alluring to me. I browse r/medicine and this website a lot, and it seems like doctors just get **** on from all angles. The public is grossly misinformed about the hierarchy in medicine (midlevels vs doctors, med interns vs residents vs fellows vs attendings). I fear that by the time that I actually become a doctor, there will be no inkling of respect for doctors anymore. Disrespect from admin/the government during the COVID-19 pandemic has only made my sensitivity towards these issues worse.
- Advent of single-payer system: I am 100% for expanded access to healthcare. I welcome universal access to healthcare, but I fear the possibly catastrophic disruption that exploding our current system and putting single-payer in its place will have on the field of medicine. I fully expect single-payer to come in my life time, and I'm worried that salaries will tank and doctors will lose even more autonomy (and mid-level autonomy will receive even greater support due to lower costs). While autonomy and money are NOT sole motivators for me, they are definitely things that draw me to the profession given the immense monetary and temporal sacrifice required by this path.
- Alarming physician dissatisfaction: As much as I have evaluated my decision to march along this path, convincing and proving myself that being a physician is the profession for me, the reality is that I am not a physician. I think that recent figures from MedScape report that ~25% of doctors regret their career choice (or something like that). I can convince myself that this is the right path for me, but I am also a realistic person. 25% is A LOT-- how can I say that I won't end up in that group? It scares me.
- Do I even like science?: I've always been convinced that I like science/biology. However, I grew up in a household where both my parents went to medical school and my sister is an MD/PhD. It was the thing I was most exposed to, and by working hard, I became "good" at it. I am a fairly competitive person, and I do derive a lot of joy/self-esteem from success. This has made me wonder: do I only like science because I've invested the most time into it and therefore it's the thing I'm best at studying (i.e. do I only like science because I've managed to find success in science by working hard)? Would I like something else just as much if I spend my efforts there instead?
All things considered, my logical self says I should not throw away years of investment into this path over a few intrusive thoughts that have clouded my mind these past weeks, but my emotions have been more vocal about this than ever (the last time something like this bothered me was sophomore year of college) and this is the closest I've ever felt towards abandoning this path.
Current MDs/Med students (or even pre-meds with similar doubts): How did you address doubts about medicine? Did you have similar concerns?
To calm myself down a bit, I did some searching and I was wondering if the following plans seem feasible:
- If I get rejected this cycle: I'll quit pre-med or at least take a year off to explore something else like learning coding for a career in SWE (am I crazy? My MCAT score expires in 9/2022 I believe)
- If I get accepted this cycle: I plan on getting an MD, but I've also been curious about how MD/MBA programs work. I would plan to complete residency and practice clinically, but I would hope that if I wanted to, I'd be able to look into consulting or something outside of clinical practice. (Is it possible to do consulting and clinical practice part-time concurrently?)
To me, it sounds like you worked very hard to get to the point that you will be an excellent candidate, and, as you are on the verge of going forward, you are having second thoughts due to the sacrifices involved and the possibility of reduced future income as compared to those who came before you. This is valid.
A ton of people have advised me that there are far easier ways to make money if that is what is motivating you. If you are envious of the lives your friends are going to have while you are basically an indentured servant in the beginning of your career, this is also valid.
Bottom line, this isn't something to do because you think you'll probably enjoy it -- this is something to do because you can't see yourself doing anything else. Quite frankly, that doesn't sound like you based on your post. Good luck!!!
You're right about me just being a premed. My point was that this is something I've been wanting to do since grade school. I never deviated, and thankfully I have the grades and other experiences to support it. Granted, lots of others come to it later than I did, but, and n=1, I haven't really thought about investing time looking into other paths. If you do, you will find many paths that are more lucrative with less personal sacrifice.Hi, thanks for the reply.
I guess I didn't come off clearly. Reduced income is definitely a concern, but that alone is not enough to throw me off this path. I'm on this path because I'm convinced that I will enjoy the work until I die/retire.
It is true that I can't see myself doing anything besides medicine currently, but that's because I haven't invested nearly as much time looking into other career paths. And I guess this is where my my qualm comes in. I'm not envious of my friends because they don't have to go through more schooling/residency. They all work hard, and I'm sure I have friends who are will also be going through 80-100hr work weeks in their lives to further their careers. I also have always loved school. My main envy is my friends seem to have their whole lives to explore and shape their paths, shifting to other things when they feel their heart unexpectedly (or maybe not) drawn to something else. I just don't see any flexibility in the path of a physician, and it scares me that, although I'm enamored by the work a physician does in clinical practice now, I can't predict how things will be decades from now, and because of the nature of the path, I won't have the freedom to explore other things.
I'm guessing that you're still a pre-med student (?), and so you probably don't have the perspective that I was looking for from current med students/residents/physicians, but as a premed student, how would you address concerns about restricting yourself to one path for the rest of your life (possibly 50+ years!!!)? I personally think it would be naive not to fall out of love (even if temporarily) with anything given that amount of time.
My thoughts:It is true that I can't see myself doing anything besides medicine currently, but that's because I haven't invested nearly as much time looking into other career paths. And I guess this is where my my qualm comes in. I'm not envious of my friends because they don't have to go through more schooling/residency. They all work hard, and I'm sure I have friends who are will also be going through 80-100hr work weeks in their lives to further their careers. I also have always loved school. My main envy is my friends seem to have their whole lives to explore and shape their paths, shifting to other things when they feel their heart unexpectedly (or maybe not) drawn to something else. I just don't see any flexibility in the path of a physician, and it scares me that, although I'm enamored by the work a physician does in clinical practice now, I can't predict how things will be decades from now, and because of the nature of the path, I won't have the freedom to explore other things.
- These are valid concerns, though are by no means new. About a year ago, someone revived a 10+ year old thread regarding mid-levels and physician autonomy, and it was striking how people back then were complaining about the exact same things. Physicians still have not been replaced by mid-levels, and people (for the most part) continue to respect the work that we do. Certainly, the dynamic between mid-levels and physicians will likely change, but I do not foresee physicians being replaced ever. We will need to adapt though.
- Rise of the mid-levels and decreasing respect/autonomy for physicians:
- Advent of single-payer system:
- Physician burnout is a real problem, and highlights the need to go into this field with realistic expectations and an honest and thoughtful evaluation of one's career goals. Medicine is definitely not for everyone. As an aside, I wonder what percentage of people in other fields are dissatisfied with their work.
- Alarming physician dissatisfaction: ~25% of doctors regret their career choice (or something like that). I can convince myself that this is the right path for me, but I am also a realistic person. 25% is A LOT-- how can I say that I won't end up in that group? It scares me.
The grass is always greener on the other side. Keep in mind that you can always explore other career pathways first to see if you would be happy doing something else. Medical schools will always be here if/when you are ready to take the plunge. Best of luck with your decision.I honestly think I have a terrible terrible case of "grass is greener" syndrome...
New med student here. Non-trad, graduated a few years back. Im not a materialistic person- I have high quality relationships with friends and family, enough money from research assistant job to at least afford an independent life. I've been with my newly-minted fiancee for 7 years, and couldn't be happier only having to plan the small party we can afford for our wedding next year. But HECK if I don't get super jealous when I see all the friends I graduated with throw super lavish weddings, live in West-Elm decorated two bedroom apartments in downtown metropolitan areas, have new trendy clothing every month, go on biyearly vacations, and buy their first homes together. How in HECK y'all doing it. Any money I have saved the last three years will be used up in the first few months of medical school. Lol.
At my best during application time last year (first and only cycle), I trusted my intuition, hit submit on that sucker, immediately went out for margaritas, and just knew it would work out because I was true to myself. At my worst, I responded to ads for data scientist online boot camps only to dream about what it would be like to make six figures and work from home within 2 years as I manically checked my email and portals.
This **** gets to you, but only you can decide if its worth it. I do think I could be relatively happy doing something else.. but when it came time to help in a medical crisis or correctly educate someone about what was best for their health, I knew Id never be happy not being able to responsibly act in those situations because those are my real passions.
I have no regrets and I never did, but I also don't think contemplating your choice is necessarily unhealthy. It gets you thinking about your goals and dreams, continually interrogating yourself about what you really want out of life as you grow and change. To me it shows thoughtfulness and awareness and honestly that this profession isn't perfect, not being unfit for this career or stubbornly sticking to it because principle and whatever. I personally think having Plan B and not being wrecked if life doesn't go exactly to your original plan is fine. There is wisdom in redirecting when all the signs are pointing to it.
You don't have to have wanted it from since you were a kid and never changed your mind. You just have to know now what's going to keep you grinding, knowing what you're doing is worth it, when the challenges get even worse cause they will haha.
(And all those friends who seem like they have the perfect financially stable career and life always have their own problems, always)
Don't quit pre-med or don't go to medical school? I'm assuming you're a physician, so your perspective is greatly appreciated.Don't do it.
Dont do it.
I would choose to be a doctor even if i was making 50K a year on single payer system in a poorly staffed rural hospital in the middle of nowhere. And i literally MEAN it. I even love how hospital smells. nothing is "too gross" for me, and i love every second of it. Do i get upset? sure. when i see addicts who messed up their lives... moms who didnt vaccinate and their child is sick.... when i see ppl dying from horrible illnesses. The rest of it? not important.
Please, dont go to medical school.
My thoughts:
- It's good that you're having these thoughts now rather than several years down the line once you are in debt. These thoughts are natural, common, and healthy.
- You are correct that the pursuit of medicine demands many sacrifices, and that sacrifices are needed to get anywhere in life (whether it be in medicine, finance, engineering, etc). No one gets to the top without hard work.
- A MD degree remains marketable and opens doors. Some of my friends and co-workers do consulting on the side, others are engaged in healthcare policy, education, administration, research, etc. One even took a few years off to start a business/education venture. Transitioning to these other environments inevitably requires 'learning the ropes' (and some natural aptitude), though this again remains true for any field.
- Medicine essentially offers lifetime job security. This can't be said for many other jobs. I know that I can comfortably provide for myself and my family for as long as my brain remains functional, and that's a huge blessing, especially in times like this.
- These are valid concerns, though are by no means new. About a year ago, someone revived a 10+ year old thread regarding mid-levels and physician autonomy, and it was striking how people back then were complaining about the exact same things. Physicians still have not been replaced by mid-levels, and people (for the most part) continue to respect the work that we do. Certainly, the dynamic between mid-levels and physicians will likely change, but I do not foresee physicians being replaced ever. We will need to adapt though.
- With how gridlocked our political system is (and how influential lobbies are), I'm not holding my breath for a single-payer system any time soon..
- Physician burnout is a real problem, and highlights the need to go into this field with realistic expectations and an honest and thoughtful evaluation of one's career goals. Medicine is definitely not for everyone. As an aside, I wonder what percentage of people in other fields are dissatisfied with their work.
The grass is always greener on the other side. Keep in mind that you can always explore other career pathways first to see if you would be happy doing something else. Medical schools will always be here if/when you are ready to take the plunge. Best of luck with your decision.
I AM in medical school . And I am not naive . Of course , I am not talking about the debt (the 300K part). If we would be paid 50K-70K rAnges , we wouldn’t have to pay 50-60 K per year. I was talking about the fact that I would do this even if it was not one of the best paying careers.Are you in medical school? I have to say this sounds like naive pie-in-the-sky premed talk. I probably thought along these lines at one point too, but as an MS4 with growing debt I see things differently. Medicine is a job, and one that appears to be pretty frustrating at times I might add. OP listen to the attendings on here or better yet talk to a few that you know personally. From my perspective, the sense of time passing by while you accumulate debt is very real and it is a tough pill to swallow. And I still have a very long residency ahead of me. I think that I could have been very happy in another career like engineering, but that might be grass is greener syndrome talking. I know that I’ll enjoy being a physician but it comes at a high cost. For me that cost is worth it because of the job stability and high income that will enable me to support my family and help my parents retire. You just gotta decide if you want it bad enough.
Every profession has its ups and downs and honestly, I think medicine has the fewest downsides (but I might just be biased). I have friends in FAANG companies, in big 3 consulting, and in financial investment, and you know what? They all hate aspects of their jobs. It’s not to say they don’t enjoy their careers (and the money doesn’t hurt) but no illustrious career isn’t going to ask you to give up your freedom and independence in your 20-30s, work until you’re borderline burned out, and risk a reduction in wages based on factors you can’t control (recession, pandemic, ect.). I’ll admit, I’ve had fever dreams of abandoning everything to open up a shaved ice cart in Hawaii, but then my momentary happiness will be quickly replaced with feelings of stagnation and unfulfillment the older I get. Your stats show you’re a hard worker and capable of a lot, but your “cons” aren’t limited to science and they will keep on persisting no matter what career you choose. So if you don’t want to be a doctor, don’t. But don’t naively believe that your other options will offer you a much better life. Do your research before you jump on a different path.
What is your major? What would you do if you decide not to go to med school?Hi all, this is partly to vent and throw my thoughts out into the open, but also to receive some advice from the community.
As background: I'm a pre-med applying this cycle with an app I've worked very hard on (3.95GPA, 525 MCAT, >1000 hrs of clinical/research exp, 100s of volunteer hours, the works etcetc.)
Lately, I've been thinking very hard about this path and whether it's right for me or not (I'm not sure there's a way to really know 100%).
It's not that I don't think I would like being a doctor. Based off of my clinical experiences and my values, I think I would LOVE being a doctor (the greatest pulls for me is the direct personal interaction the job involves, the privelege of being intimately involved in others' lives to make a difference, and being able to have a positive impact on people's lives/my community/the world). And now just as I'm applying I'm getting cold feet again.
Why? Well a few disruptive and intrusive realizations/thoughts have been wracking my brain constantly for the last few days (haven't slept well in a week...)
I honestly think I have a terrible terrible case of "grass is greener" syndrome... To re-iterate, I am still convinced that I would love being a physician and clinical practice, but I worried that, in this one life that I have, there could be something else for me as well and committing to medicine will mean I will never have a chance to explore.
- Sacrificing freedom/independence in my 20s/30s: The majority of my friends are in SWE (software engineers), consulting, IB. I have 2 premed friends I'm very close with, and a few current med student friends I'm less close with. While the path to medicine has always seemed glorious to me, I am (quite frankly) jealous of my friends when I hear them talk about their plans. My current view is that if I'm going to continue down this path, I would love to eventually arrive at clinical practice, but I fear that I am restricting myself to never doing anything outside of medicine up until the point I die. I hear my friends saying they plan to move jobs every 2 years (something I see as terrible honestly; as I hate applying for stuff) or plan to switch careers (e.g. going from tech->product management or consulting->starting a business; this seems cool to me). In the path to being a physician, that freedom to move around and liberally carve one's professional path as you go just does not seem to exist. Correct me if I'm wrong.
- Rise of the mid-levels and decreasing respect/autonomy for physicians: I understand that this should NOT be a sole motivator for going into medicine, but I will admit that the prestige/respect involved with being a doctor is one thing that made medicine alluring to me. I browse r/medicine and this website a lot, and it seems like doctors just get **** on from all angles. The public is grossly misinformed about the hierarchy in medicine (midlevels vs doctors, med interns vs residents vs fellows vs attendings). I fear that by the time that I actually become a doctor, there will be no inkling of respect for doctors anymore. Disrespect from admin/the government during the COVID-19 pandemic has only made my sensitivity towards these issues worse.
- Advent of single-payer system: I am 100% for expanded access to healthcare. I welcome universal access to healthcare, but I fear the possibly catastrophic disruption that exploding our current system and putting single-payer in its place will have on the field of medicine. I fully expect single-payer to come in my life time, and I'm worried that salaries will tank and doctors will lose even more autonomy (and mid-level autonomy will receive even greater support due to lower costs). While autonomy and money are NOT sole motivators for me, they are definitely things that are important to me when considering my future given the immense monetary and temporal sacrifice required by this path.
- Alarming physician dissatisfaction: As much as I have evaluated my decision to march along this path, convincing and proving myself that being a physician is the profession for me, the reality is that I am not a physician. I think that recent figures from MedScape report that ~25% of doctors regret their career choice (or something like that). I can convince myself that this is the right path for me, but I am also a realistic person. 25% is A LOT-- how can I say that I won't end up in that group? It scares me.
- Do I even like science?: I've always been convinced that I like science/biology. However, I grew up in a household where both my parents went to medical school and my sister is an MD/PhD. It was the thing I was most exposed to, and by working hard, I became "good" at it. I am a fairly competitive person, and I do derive a lot of joy/self-esteem from success. This has made me wonder: do I only like science because I've invested the most time into it and therefore it's the thing I'm best at studying (i.e. do I only like science because I've managed to find success in science by working hard)? Would I like something else just as much if I spend my efforts there instead?
All things considered, my logical self says I should not throw away years of investment into this path over a few intrusive thoughts that have clouded my mind these past weeks, but my emotions have been more vocal about this than ever (the last time something like this bothered me was sophomore year of college) and this is the closest I've ever felt towards abandoning this path.
Current MDs/Med students (or even pre-meds with similar doubts): How did you address doubts about medicine? Did you have similar concerns?
To calm myself down a bit, I did some searching and I was wondering if the following plans seem feasible:
- If I get rejected this cycle: I'll quit pre-med or at least take a year off to explore something else like learning coding for a career in SWE (am I crazy? My MCAT score expires in 9/2022 I believe)
- If I get accepted this cycle: I plan on getting an MD, but I've also been curious about how MD/MBA programs work. I would plan to complete residency and practice clinically, but I would hope that if I wanted to, I'd be able to look into consulting or something outside of clinical practice. (Is it possible to do consulting and clinical practice part-time concurrently?)
- Sacrificing freedom/independence in my 20s/30s: The majority of my friends are in SWE (software engineers), consulting, IB. I have 2 premed friends I'm very close with, and a few current med student friends I'm less close with. While the path to medicine has always seemed glorious to me, I am (quite frankly) jealous of my friends when I hear them talk about their plans. My current view is that if I'm going to continue down this path, I would love to eventually arrive at clinical practice, but I fear that I am restricting myself to never doing anything outside of medicine up until the point I die. I hear my friends saying they plan to move jobs every 2 years (something I see as terrible honestly; as I hate applying for stuff) or plan to switch careers (e.g. going from tech->product management or consulting->starting a business; this seems cool to me). In the path to being a physician, that freedom to move around and liberally carve one's professional path as you go just does not seem to exist. Correct me if I'm wrong.
- Rise of the mid-levels and decreasing respect/autonomy for physicians: I understand that this should NOT be a sole motivator for going into medicine, but I will admit that the prestige/respect involved with being a doctor is one thing that made medicine alluring to me. I browse r/medicine and this website a lot, and it seems like doctors just get **** on from all angles. The public is grossly misinformed about the hierarchy in medicine (midlevels vs doctors, med interns vs residents vs fellows vs attendings). I fear that by the time that I actually become a doctor, there will be no inkling of respect for doctors anymore. Disrespect from admin/the government during the COVID-19 pandemic has only made my sensitivity towards these issues worse.
- Advent of single-payer system: I am 100% for expanded access to healthcare. I welcome universal access to healthcare, but I fear the possibly catastrophic disruption that exploding our current system and putting single-payer in its place will have on the field of medicine. I fully expect single-payer to come in my life time, and I'm worried that salaries will tank and doctors will lose even more autonomy (and mid-level autonomy will receive even greater support due to lower costs). While autonomy and money are NOT sole motivators for me, they are definitely things that are important to me when considering my future given the immense monetary and temporal sacrifice required by this path.
- Alarming physician dissatisfaction: As much as I have evaluated my decision to march along this path, convincing and proving myself that being a physician is the profession for me, the reality is that I am not a physician. I think that recent figures from MedScape report that ~25% of doctors regret their career choice (or something like that). I can convince myself that this is the right path for me, but I am also a realistic person. 25% is A LOT-- how can I say that I won't end up in that group? It scares me.
- Do I even like science?: I've always been convinced that I like science/biology. However, I grew up in a household where both my parents went to medical school and my sister is an MD/PhD. It was the thing I was most exposed to, and by working hard, I became "good" at it. I am a fairly competitive person, and I do derive a lot of joy/self-esteem from success. This has made me wonder: do I only like science because I've invested the most time into it and therefore it's the thing I'm best at studying (i.e. do I only like science because I've managed to find success in science by working hard)? Would I like something else just as much if I spend my efforts there instead?
But HECK if I don't get super jealous when I see all the friends I graduated with throw super lavish weddings, live in West-Elm decorated two bedroom apartments in downtown metropolitan areas, have new trendy clothing every month, go on biyearly vacations, and buy their first homes together. How in HECK y'all doing it.
Dont do it.
I would choose to be a doctor even if i was making 50K a year on single payer system in a poorly staffed rural hospital in the middle of nowhere. And i literally MEAN it. I even love how hospital smells. nothing is "too gross" for me, and i love every second of it. Do i get upset? sure. when i see addicts who messed up their lives... moms who didnt vaccinate and their child is sick.... when i see ppl dying from horrible illnesses. The rest of it? not important.
Please, dont go to medical school.
Hi all, this is partly to vent and throw my thoughts out into the open, but also to receive some advice from the community.
As background: I'm a pre-med applying this cycle with an app I've worked very hard on (3.95GPA, 525 MCAT, >1000 hrs of clinical/research exp, 100s of volunteer hours, the works etcetc.)
Lately, I've been thinking very hard about this path and whether it's right for me or not (I'm not sure there's a way to really know 100%).
It's not that I don't think I would like being a doctor. Based off of my clinical experiences and my values, I think I would LOVE being a doctor (the greatest pulls for me is the direct personal interaction the job involves, the privelege of being intimately involved in others' lives to make a difference, and being able to have a positive impact on people's lives/my community/the world). And now just as I'm applying I'm getting cold feet again.
Why? Well a few disruptive and intrusive realizations/thoughts have been wracking my brain constantly for the last few days (haven't slept well in a week...)
I honestly think I have a terrible terrible case of "grass is greener" syndrome... To re-iterate, I am still convinced that I would love being a physician and clinical practice, but I worried that, in this one life that I have, there could be something else for me as well and committing to medicine will mean I will never have a chance to explore.
- Sacrificing freedom/independence in my 20s/30s: The majority of my friends are in SWE (software engineers), consulting, IB. I have 2 premed friends I'm very close with, and a few current med student friends I'm less close with. While the path to medicine has always seemed glorious to me, I am (quite frankly) jealous of my friends when I hear them talk about their plans. My current view is that if I'm going to continue down this path, I would love to eventually arrive at clinical practice, but I fear that I am restricting myself to never doing anything outside of medicine up until the point I die. I hear my friends saying they plan to move jobs every 2 years (something I see as terrible honestly; as I hate applying for stuff) or plan to switch careers (e.g. going from tech->product management or consulting->starting a business; this seems cool to me). In the path to being a physician, that freedom to move around and liberally carve one's professional path as you go just does not seem to exist. Correct me if I'm wrong.
- Rise of the mid-levels and decreasing respect/autonomy for physicians: I understand that this should NOT be a sole motivator for going into medicine, but I will admit that the prestige/respect involved with being a doctor is one thing that made medicine alluring to me. I browse r/medicine and this website a lot, and it seems like doctors just get **** on from all angles. The public is grossly misinformed about the hierarchy in medicine (midlevels vs doctors, med interns vs residents vs fellows vs attendings). I fear that by the time that I actually become a doctor, there will be no inkling of respect for doctors anymore. Disrespect from admin/the government during the COVID-19 pandemic has only made my sensitivity towards these issues worse.
- Advent of single-payer system: I am 100% for expanded access to healthcare. I welcome universal access to healthcare, but I fear the possibly catastrophic disruption that exploding our current system and putting single-payer in its place will have on the field of medicine. I fully expect single-payer to come in my life time, and I'm worried that salaries will tank and doctors will lose even more autonomy (and mid-level autonomy will receive even greater support due to lower costs). While autonomy and money are NOT sole motivators for me, they are definitely things that are important to me when considering my future given the immense monetary and temporal sacrifice required by this path.
- Alarming physician dissatisfaction: As much as I have evaluated my decision to march along this path, convincing and proving myself that being a physician is the profession for me, the reality is that I am not a physician. I think that recent figures from MedScape report that ~25% of doctors regret their career choice (or something like that). I can convince myself that this is the right path for me, but I am also a realistic person. 25% is A LOT-- how can I say that I won't end up in that group? It scares me.
- Do I even like science?: I've always been convinced that I like science/biology. However, I grew up in a household where both my parents went to medical school and my sister is an MD/PhD. It was the thing I was most exposed to, and by working hard, I became "good" at it. I am a fairly competitive person, and I do derive a lot of joy/self-esteem from success. This has made me wonder: do I only like science because I've invested the most time into it and therefore it's the thing I'm best at studying (i.e. do I only like science because I've managed to find success in science by working hard)? Would I like something else just as much if I spend my efforts there instead?
All things considered, my logical self says I should not throw away years of investment into this path over a few intrusive thoughts that have clouded my mind these past weeks, but my emotions have been more vocal about this than ever (the last time something like this bothered me was sophomore year of college) and this is the closest I've ever felt towards abandoning this path.
Current MDs/Med students (or even pre-meds with similar doubts): How did you address doubts about medicine? Did you have similar concerns?
To calm myself down a bit, I did some searching and I was wondering if the following plans seem feasible:
- If I get rejected this cycle: I'll quit pre-med or at least take a year off to explore something else like learning coding for a career in SWE (am I crazy? My MCAT score expires in 9/2022 I believe)
- If I get accepted this cycle: I plan on getting an MD, but I've also been curious about how MD/MBA programs work. I would plan to complete residency and practice clinically, but I would hope that if I wanted to, I'd be able to look into consulting or something outside of clinical practice. (Is it possible to do consulting and clinical practice part-time concurrently?)
It’s a job at the end of the day. Yes, it pays well and let’s you do something cool that few will ever get to experience, but it’s still just a job. The whole “it’s a calling” pre-med BS will fall by the wayside as you go through.
There are certainly pressures, both internal and external, that can make the work routine, but your generalization may be overly broad.
Association between physician burnout and identification with medicine as a calling:
Conclusion: Physicians who experience more burnout are less likely to identify with medicine as a calling. Erosion of the sense that medicine is a calling may have adverse consequences for physicians as well as those for whom they care.
lmao, what a ridiculous “study.” Ok, guess I better start seeing a therapist about ma feels and burnout.
thats exactly how I feel. And that is not naive , this is just a different way of looking at it .It makes sense. Anyone who sees their job as a calling can deal with the lousy stuff much easier because they see the higher purpose of their job. It’s why most people in religious life(monks/nuns/etc report such high levels of happiness and purpose)
It makes sense. Anyone who sees their job as a calling can deal with the lousy stuff much easier because they see the higher purpose of their job. It’s why most people in religious life(monks/nuns/etc report such high levels of happiness and purpose)
I do not equivalate my job to that of a nun or a monk. If anything, that is insulting to someone who has dedicated their life to God and who I agree is answering a higher calling. In medicine, that is something naive pre-meds who say to get their foot in the door, along with “money doesn’t matter to me” and “pediatric interventional [insert competitive medical speciality] is my passion.” It’s pure nonsense.
I feel that my job is closer to that of a mechanic; I offer a service that is specialized and few could offer competently without proper training. Are dentists, pharmacists and lawyers supposed to feel that their job is similar to that of a nun?
Compensation will decrease, thats a given. How much, who knows? I don't know what your debt level will be at this point. Some students on SDN have said they are in debt over 400k. Decreased salary makes executing the debt more difficult.
You dont have a Boss??? Think again. There is a practice manager, someone who is far from your peer intrllectually telling you your patient satisfaction scores arent high enough or you arent seeing enough patients to fullfill your contract obligations,(meaning you aren't generating enough money to pay for yourself). If the latter happens, they will Non-Renew your contract and you are selling your house in a down market. Not to mention pulling your kids out of school.
Lack of autonomy. You have to jump through the hoops the insurers set up if you need any expensive testing for your patients. This is cause for great dissatisfaction amongst employed physicians. Docs in the UK are very well trained but only provide generic care because they are extremely limited by what they are allowed to order and the beauracrats that authorize testing.
Having said all of this, my son, completely aware of everything i have said is finishing his 3rd yr of Family Medicine residency and applying to fellowships. Its normal to have these doubts. You don't realize what great insight you have about medicine with your family experience. Much more than the average pre med. I normally tell pre meds if you have to think about it, dont do it. Its something you know in your heart. You are a good student and can always go non clinical, research, administration, med ed, etc..
I would apply and see how things go. Good luck and best wishes!
You have time! This is something that I never realized when I was younger. A year, or two, or three is NOTHING. You can make anything work. So, I would recommend that you take the time you need to explore other options and enter medical school when you really believe that's the right step for you.
If, after your 20s/30s evaporate like spilled gasoline, you find yourself staring down the barrel of middle age having perhaps made some money but little difference in the world, medicine will still be there.
Both, but they have different titles. Practice managers are found in practices which employ physicians. For hospital based docs, there will be an administrative type who will be constantly meeting with the group to discuss various financial aspects. Sometimes the hospital will subsidize some services that don't make money or coverages that dont pay for themselves. They will constantly ask for increased service for lower subsidy or threaten to eliminate the subsidy. Ex, hospitals sometimes help pay for Nighthawk coverage in radiology, or a stipend for the Chief of the dept to be out of the dept to attend all those meetings. Hospitals might want docs to sign up for ins plans that the hospital desires but are very poor payers to docs. If you are hospital based, oftentimes your group will have an exclusive contract for Rads, Path, or Gas, or ER. Administrators will sometimes use that as a wedge. Being an employed doc has upsides and downsidesI’m not sure if the no boss thing was in reference to what I said?
do “practice managers” exist in hospitals? Or are you referring specifically to the manager of a private practice?
Thanks for everyone's replies!
I've reflected a lot on how each response makes me feel.
I posted this to vent and hear people's thoughts, and it's been super helpful in reflecting on what I want. I general, I felt good reading the responses that seemed to provide encouragement about continuing down this path, while I felt bad/negative about responses that seemed to encourage me to abandon this path.
This just tells me that if I left this path, I would find it dreadful, and I would more than likely regret my decision. The reality is that my experiences along this path have only grown my love for it. My doubts are founded mostly on speculation about the future of medicine that nobody can predict for certain and about a fear that if I continue down this path, it may end up being a ball and chain that I won't be able to release myself from if I wanted to.
I get the sense from some of the responses that even after or during clinical practice as a physician, the knowledge and expertise I will have gained will open up other doors outside of clinical practice that I may choose to explore if desired. This is comforting. Obviously, I have been concerned about my singular life on this planet, and it's terrifying to feel like I'm making a possibly damning decision about the rest of my life as an early 20s young adult.
While I'm envious of my peers' perceived freedom to carve their own paths, I guess I have been immature in focusing on only the good things I see in their lives. From my personal experience, I'm pretty certain that I would hate if my work revolved around a computer (rather than working with people), as that's the part of my job I currently detest the most, and I would feel tremendously unfulfilled if I was not in a line of work where I feel my impact has a positive effect on my community or the world (I think I've always tended to stress out about my existence/purpose on this planet a lot, and I don't think this is a trait that will change).
I've been talking a lot with my friends too, and I've decided that once secondaries pass, I'll devote a lot of time to try to learn how to code (I'll probably find use for it in my job anyways). As it stands now, I'm kinda doubtful that I would suddenly develop a new love for it (I had previous experience in college and high school) that would inspire me to abandon pre-med, but I do think I should explore it more seriously. Or maybe I'll quit my job and try to find a gig in a health-care consulting firm to see what that's like.
This is real. You friend will ask if you can come to their birthday in two weeks and you won't know because you don't have your schedule yet. You might often feel that your time isn't really your own because you have to study so much outside of work. That all blows, and obviously somebody who works a 9-5 M-F job doesn't have the same problems. However, it is temporary. I don't know how old you are right now but you can graduate residency as young as 29 as an attending and basically work as much or as little as you want. And at that point you'll likely have much more autonomy than your peers. I'll also say that you're right that the grass is always greener. I've joked in the past - where are all the SDN users finding all these friends with the six figure jobs right out of college? Honestly, my bet is that most people are just over-exaggerating their life on social media and don't have as glamorous a time as one might think. The reality is that most people right out of college are in a grind. Low salary, hard jobs, long hours, bad economy. Medical students probably work harder, but there's a greater stability underlying it.Sacrificing freedom/independence in my 20s/30s:
In my opinion, this current cultural moment is relatively anti-medicine but I think the pendulum will swing back. In my experience, the patients I actually see and care for are by and largely extremely grateful for doctors. One thing to consider is that it's getting harder to be your own boss these days and medicine is becoming increasingly concentrated in the hands of large health systems that buy out smaller practices, which is something to consider if that in particular is of interest to you.Rise of the mid-levels and decreasing respect/autonomy for physicians:
Regardless of how you feel about single payer, the obstacles to this country actually developing a single payer system are immense. The Democrats had an enormous majority when they passed the ACA and couldn't even get a public option in because it was opposed by other democrats. It's currently only supported by like 1/3 of Democratic senators. Political winds would have to shift in a dramatic way for that to even be in the realm of possibility.Advent of single-payer system:
I think this goes back to the discussion about people being more likely to be negative publicly. Who's more likely to fill out some survey about how happy they are and if they get paid enough? The dissatisfied people are going to be magnified. The overwhelming majority of physicians I've met seem extremely happy and fulfilled in their career.Alarming physician dissatisfaction:
Why? These are all very normal worries for someone to have right before pressing submit on AMCAS.Don't do it.