somehowsomeway
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I went to community college and finished with a 3.5 total (B's and C's in bio and ochem) for about 70 semester units. Proved a lot of people wrong and pulled off some impressive extracurriculars and went to a big name school (quarter system) and nailed my first quarter with straight A's--I was driven as hell. And then after that I hit depression like a wall, absolute crash and burn. I used to think depression was something lazy people talked about until it happened to me, I was a pretty competitive student and had a huge chip on my shoulder since I went to community college. It was like my internal flame had just been extinguished--nothing helped and I went from a straight A student to failing every quarter until I was academically dismissed with a barely 2.0 GPA. I couldn't even bring myself to leave the dorm room, I never even attended class and barely passed from cramming incessantly/desperately the night before. Nothing made it better and I turned to weed. I gained a ton of weight and lost pretty much all my friends.
For a year I worked odd jobs in sales and administration and was miserable. I did well in them because I had to because even my family was done supporting me--I was paycheck to paycheck. I couldn't understand why I lost all will to do anything and everything. I lost everything; I was super involved and promising at one point but I was a shell of what I used to be and my life was a joke compared to the high aspirations I had. I swore my story wouldn't end like this. I slowly began rebuilding, one bad habit at a time. A year later I lost 50+ pounds and learned my issue was motivation vs discipline. I lacked consistency and a "no excuses approach" and have since mastered discipline (showing up even when you don't want to) and even do triathlons and ultramarathons now. My mind and body are tougher than they have ever been and I would give anything to go back and re-do college but I cant. After speaking with my school, they saw my transformation and allowed me to come back and finish my degree (like 2 classes). I know I have the discipline and work ethic to get a good MCAT score (it will take time but I can do it) to show I mean business but is there even a chance I can bounce back from a hole like this? This is the only career I want but is it game over in all pragmatism? I get a physical transformation is something plenty of people do but I was a kid, at least maturity wise, and the person I am now does what he sets out to do no matter what. I'll have my remaining two classes done soon (they will be A+ 's , guaranteed). But would med school's even care or is this future a lost cause?
Thank you for your time!
For a year I worked odd jobs in sales and administration and was miserable. I did well in them because I had to because even my family was done supporting me--I was paycheck to paycheck. I couldn't understand why I lost all will to do anything and everything. I lost everything; I was super involved and promising at one point but I was a shell of what I used to be and my life was a joke compared to the high aspirations I had. I swore my story wouldn't end like this. I slowly began rebuilding, one bad habit at a time. A year later I lost 50+ pounds and learned my issue was motivation vs discipline. I lacked consistency and a "no excuses approach" and have since mastered discipline (showing up even when you don't want to) and even do triathlons and ultramarathons now. My mind and body are tougher than they have ever been and I would give anything to go back and re-do college but I cant. After speaking with my school, they saw my transformation and allowed me to come back and finish my degree (like 2 classes). I know I have the discipline and work ethic to get a good MCAT score (it will take time but I can do it) to show I mean business but is there even a chance I can bounce back from a hole like this? This is the only career I want but is it game over in all pragmatism? I get a physical transformation is something plenty of people do but I was a kid, at least maturity wise, and the person I am now does what he sets out to do no matter what. I'll have my remaining two classes done soon (they will be A+ 's , guaranteed). But would med school's even care or is this future a lost cause?
Thank you for your time!
