Hi everyone! I'm very thankful to have been accepted but find myself starting to get cold feet about the commitment. I would appreciate some insight to guide my thought process. Constructive feedback only, please.
Why medicine:
In high school, I loved loved my biology and chemistry classes--I remember I could read my bio textbook for 10 hour straight for fun, no joke. In college, I really remained open to other fields while continuing to explore medicine. I did a decent amount of shadowing and clinical service. I majored in a social science. I was very involved in basic science research. Academically, I confirmed that medicine was the subject that most excited me, and I loved the problem-solving and intellectual nature of it. This ruled out my social science subject as a career. Volunteering, I found I truly enjoyed working with individuals, and enjoyed that I was able to affect them in some way. Research, I felt, wasn't a good fit for me because a) you're pretty distant from your work's impact on people and b) it's really difficult to see substantial results or progress from your work. Both of these factors are important to me in having a fulfilling career.
Job stability + decent income were pros, but not deciding factors. Job stability is more important to me, income is not so important to me as long as I make enough to live comfortably (you do not need anywhere close to a doctor's salary for that!).
Why cold thoughts:
Now that the prospect of being a doctor is so tangible, I've been thinking a lot more about the cons. The incredible debt, watching your youth pass by as you're in school, malignant teaching culture of some programs, difficulty of balancing finding a partner/starting a family with training, limited ability to have a normal life outside of medicine for 7-10 years, so much administrative BS you deal with, patients aren't always appreciative of your work, high rate of burnout/depression/suicide ideation, etc. I've been reading resident forums and med student blogs more, and lots of people sound bitter and disenchanted. I keep reading people writing they want to quit but can't because of the debt. Some of my friends who are currently in med school are similarly disenchanted.
Both of my parents are in medicine (and fully supportive of me changing paths if that's what I want!). I see them being overworked, stressed about malpractice, mistreated by admin and patients at times. They both enjoy the medicine itself and love the nature of the work, but the other factors really seem to weigh down on them and drain them so much. I can see both of them heading towards burnout.
Overall:
If I had unlimited time and money, I would choose medicine in a heartbeat. I wouldn't be worried about the debt, and I wouldn't worry about the time constraints medicine placed on the rest of my life. However, my time is constrained, and I've been wondering if I'd be happier overall in a career that was less exciting and less fulfilling to me but was not so demanding. This is hard for me to decide because my academic life has always been such a big source of fulfillment and intellectual challenge/excitement for me. Right now, I feel like the benefits to me outweigh the costs. But how can really understand the costs of medicine before feeling them myself? I worry that I too will be disillusioned like others once I start med school, and worry that I find what I perceive to be the rewards are not enough to overcome the challenges anymore.
I'd really love some guidance on this, especially from those further along their career that are NOT disenchanted or regretting their choice.
Why medicine:
In high school, I loved loved my biology and chemistry classes--I remember I could read my bio textbook for 10 hour straight for fun, no joke. In college, I really remained open to other fields while continuing to explore medicine. I did a decent amount of shadowing and clinical service. I majored in a social science. I was very involved in basic science research. Academically, I confirmed that medicine was the subject that most excited me, and I loved the problem-solving and intellectual nature of it. This ruled out my social science subject as a career. Volunteering, I found I truly enjoyed working with individuals, and enjoyed that I was able to affect them in some way. Research, I felt, wasn't a good fit for me because a) you're pretty distant from your work's impact on people and b) it's really difficult to see substantial results or progress from your work. Both of these factors are important to me in having a fulfilling career.
Job stability + decent income were pros, but not deciding factors. Job stability is more important to me, income is not so important to me as long as I make enough to live comfortably (you do not need anywhere close to a doctor's salary for that!).
Why cold thoughts:
Now that the prospect of being a doctor is so tangible, I've been thinking a lot more about the cons. The incredible debt, watching your youth pass by as you're in school, malignant teaching culture of some programs, difficulty of balancing finding a partner/starting a family with training, limited ability to have a normal life outside of medicine for 7-10 years, so much administrative BS you deal with, patients aren't always appreciative of your work, high rate of burnout/depression/suicide ideation, etc. I've been reading resident forums and med student blogs more, and lots of people sound bitter and disenchanted. I keep reading people writing they want to quit but can't because of the debt. Some of my friends who are currently in med school are similarly disenchanted.
Both of my parents are in medicine (and fully supportive of me changing paths if that's what I want!). I see them being overworked, stressed about malpractice, mistreated by admin and patients at times. They both enjoy the medicine itself and love the nature of the work, but the other factors really seem to weigh down on them and drain them so much. I can see both of them heading towards burnout.
Overall:
If I had unlimited time and money, I would choose medicine in a heartbeat. I wouldn't be worried about the debt, and I wouldn't worry about the time constraints medicine placed on the rest of my life. However, my time is constrained, and I've been wondering if I'd be happier overall in a career that was less exciting and less fulfilling to me but was not so demanding. This is hard for me to decide because my academic life has always been such a big source of fulfillment and intellectual challenge/excitement for me. Right now, I feel like the benefits to me outweigh the costs. But how can really understand the costs of medicine before feeling them myself? I worry that I too will be disillusioned like others once I start med school, and worry that I find what I perceive to be the rewards are not enough to overcome the challenges anymore.
I'd really love some guidance on this, especially from those further along their career that are NOT disenchanted or regretting their choice.
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