@RLSGrasshopper @pathologyDO @Dharma @ladybug1552 @super_mom and anyone else who followed this thread months back...
I don't know if any of you are still here or are busy with life/clinicals but I sure hope you respond if you ever come back to SDN and see this and let me know how you're doing.
First of all, this thread was what gave me hope even though I felt like giving up. Heck, this entire message board and some individuals like
@Phloston helped to make life better when I thought I was alone in this. Granted, SDN is also a double-edged sword. I really scared myself by reading posts about people failing the thing with NBMEs in the 220s and 230s even. The truth is this test is as much as a crapshoot as it is an assessment of your medical knowledge. We all have weaknesses and strengths and they are not all evenly divided into all the subjects that can be tested. I personally think I got incredibly lucky with my guesses, knowledge and hand of questions but it could have all gone south if I lost hope.
What I'm trying to say is don't ever give up on yourself even if you don't think you can do it. Always have some hope because in the end, that is what will make the difference between a pass and a fail - a good score and a bad score. My biggest problem throughout test prep was incredible anxiety. I wasted far much more time being anxious about failure than about the possibility for success. You need to go into this with optimism. Pessimism will only be self-defeating and cause you to make a failing score a self-fulfilling prophecy.
I will say this --> surround yourself with positive people who can snap you out of despair, ambivalence, boredom, procrastination. Without my family, I could not have done this. I always pride myself with doing it solo and getting through things by myself but I definitely could not have done it without their help. Especially, in the last week leading up to test day, if I didn't have them, I would have gone crazy with anxiety and would have screwed up my test day for sure.
Another thing that is important --> no matter how unprepared you feel on test day, you've given it all so stop worrying about failing. You might feel like crap through the test but never give up. Keep doing those questions with the same focus you started out with and you will give yourself the best shot at success. I felt like I failed half way through the test. By the last block, I thought there was no redeeming myself, but guess what? I told myself, screw it, I'm going to give it my best even if I already failed the exam by now. In the end, I over thought and I would have been my own worst enemy had I listened to my negative emotions.
The point is - if you truly studied your ass off and used the proper resources, you can get a good score. I always thought people spewed crap about NBMEs being a good predictor even on test day because every question seemed a bit less straightforward than the NBMEs but surprisingly I got almost the average of my last two NBMEs. It's crazy but they are actually fair predictors. I will write something in the 2015 experiences thread but I will leave you with my class standing, score and my starting NBME, so maybe some of you might have hope... good luck and may god bless!
Class rank: bottom quartile - marginal pass
Starting NBME: 188 UWSA (remember these are inflated by 20 when I took them the first time so estimated ~168 NBME)
Preparation time: 3.1 months (I asked for many extensions because my scores did not go up for a long time)
Actual Step 1 score: 240