Hi,
I am a long time lurker and this is my first post.
I am in my intern year at a categorical neurology residency.
I don't know whether I am just burned out, or depressed, or both, but I am honestly not excited or looking forward to my actual neurology program.
Every time I hear about how hard the PGY2s have to work, (ie several 24 hours calls during the week), I start to regret my choice in doing this specialty. I keep trying to reason the calls by thinking that all other subspecialties have to work just as hard, like if you were a first year cardiology or GI fellow. I have been able to find some solace in that fact, however I don't even know if I find the field interesting any more,. I guess since I am a very introverted person, and I see all the residents having to present in front of a bunch of neurology attendings absolutely intimidating. 'I thought about doing something more hands on but I don't even know how to even get around to switching specialties. But to be honest, I think I would switch, get tired, and start to wonder whether I should give up and switch fields again. I thought about how the job prospect is probably not going to be that great afterwards, and how I have heard from some of the attendings how outpatient clinic is really tough to do.
I guess I feel like I am in a long dark tunnel and the light at the end of the tunnel is also bleak. I feel like I need to talk to a psychologist/counselor.
Thanks
I am a long time lurker and this is my first post.
I am in my intern year at a categorical neurology residency.
I don't know whether I am just burned out, or depressed, or both, but I am honestly not excited or looking forward to my actual neurology program.
Every time I hear about how hard the PGY2s have to work, (ie several 24 hours calls during the week), I start to regret my choice in doing this specialty. I keep trying to reason the calls by thinking that all other subspecialties have to work just as hard, like if you were a first year cardiology or GI fellow. I have been able to find some solace in that fact, however I don't even know if I find the field interesting any more,. I guess since I am a very introverted person, and I see all the residents having to present in front of a bunch of neurology attendings absolutely intimidating. 'I thought about doing something more hands on but I don't even know how to even get around to switching specialties. But to be honest, I think I would switch, get tired, and start to wonder whether I should give up and switch fields again. I thought about how the job prospect is probably not going to be that great afterwards, and how I have heard from some of the attendings how outpatient clinic is really tough to do.
I guess I feel like I am in a long dark tunnel and the light at the end of the tunnel is also bleak. I feel like I need to talk to a psychologist/counselor.
Thanks
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