But I don't feeeeeeel smart...

[prettypea]

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after a long-winded journey through the seemingly never-ending abyss that was undergrad, my confidence is pretty shaken and i really wonder if i'll be able to match up to whatever the level is that medical students are supposed to. back in the day i was what you would most probably call a gunner (ah, that nice little tidy row of A's on my eighth grade report card), but a few setbacks here, and a family tragedy or two, and there i was, at the mercy of the pass mark.

sooo... i'm up for bat now in january at med school, and i'm a little apprehensive... should i (and i mean this in all seriousness) start catching up on biochem NOW? how do i deal with all those gunners? what if my whole CLASS is a bunch of gunners and i'm the only one out? what if the guys think i'm fat? what if i'm not as smart as my mom says i am? what if i don't know how to calculate long numbers in my head on the spot? what if the teacher picks on me to demonstrate an experiment on my leg and i haven't shaved that day? what if i try real hard and still don't live up to my OWN expectations? HALP.

 

[Biffer]

and what about the thousands of people who died in iran two days ago?

I hope this wasn't meant as a flippant post---this could have been left out.

biffer

 

[prettypea]

Geez Louise...

how can anyone see those pics and be FLIPPANT?! i'll just go ahead and delete that part in case it offends people when it certainly WAS NOT intended to be stupid... i AM actually scared as noted above... not meant to be an (entirely) flippant post... 🙄

 

[TravellinDoc]

ahhh, insecurity, so attractive in a woman . . .🙄

 

[Buck Strong]

I think insecurity and self doubt is something most people in med school deal with...it's not easy to see a grade in the 70's when most people in med school have been used to 90's. You have to start dealing with the fact that you don't know everything, and that chances are, you won't. I know i've struggled with this alot, but slowly, you get over it, and you learn to cope with less than ideal circumstances...It's been hard, but i think i'm a stronger person for it now.

 

[prettypea]

Originally posted by TravellinDoc
ahhh, insecurity, so attractive in a woman . . .🙄

But I'm a man!

 

[tae1703]

Originally posted by prettypea
But I'm a man!

lol

 

[Buck Strong]

Originally posted by prettypea
what if the guys think i'm fat?

I hope you were kidding about being a dude

 

[prettypea]

Originally posted by Buck Strong
I hope you were kidding about being a dude

Well, thank you for picking up on ALL my insecurities today, Buck Strong. And there's nothing wrong for a dood to shave his legs... Swimmers do it all the time!

 

[Heal&Teach]

Whoa... this was just a little more intense than I was looking for in a thread...

Prettypea, yeah, we all deal with insecurities in our lives (as mentioned above), and you'll learn to deal with them. You need to focus on yourself and the things that you can address. So what if people think you're fat or unattractive - be happy with yourself. It sounds to me that you're not happy with some aspects of yourself, which is normal, but don't let those things prevent you from being the best person, student, and doctor that you can be. If someone has something to say about you, brush it off. They're hatin' on you and your milkshake (refer to the "Milkshake" thread in the Lounge). 🙂 Just be a man about it, and you'll be all right.

H&T

PS It's okay to have hairy legs - us women (and most men?) expect it. But I do admit that stubble can be a challenge for a man in places other than his face...

 

[prettypea]

lol Heal&Teach - this thread was only supposed to be written half-jokingly... I'm hoping a little insecurity is not TOTALLY out of order - after all, reading your guys' credentials IS a bit daunting!

 

[prettypea]

Originally posted by TravellinDoc
ahhh, insecurity, so attractive in a woman . . .🙄

You're right TravellingDoc! Here's a better example of a secure, stable woman (Jesswise) http://forums.studentdoctor.net/showthread.php?s=&threadid=96415

May I one day be as strong as her! Heck, may we all!

 

[woolie]

Hi prettypea,

Well, I don't mind admitting to these feelings as well. When I got accepted I felt glad/sad and everything in between including fear and dread that 'oh my God, what if I'm not as smart as I think I am ..."

I think these are very natural feelings and fears. We would not be human if we didn't have these emotions. It's one thing to struggle and work your butt off on a ugrad (or postbacc, like me) and see the final goal as a misty, distant thing. Well, now the goal is right in front of me and the weight of responsibility is a little intimidating.

I know that I will work as hard as I have to to do as well as I can, and that I will get used to the awesome role of responsibility that will eventually be mine. One day, and not too far off, I will be the one that the nurses and pa's - even volunteer premeds - will look up to for the final word on something. I'm sure I'll be fine and will actually enjoy the work, but it's something to stop and think about - at least for me.

But yes, I have been trying to get my mind around all sorts of insecurities. This is a really big step, and it takes some time to get used to.

About the legs ... I like it when guys shave their legs for swimming 😀 ...

 

[kwanny]

Originally posted by woolie
About the legs ... I like it when guys shave their legs for swimming 😀 ...

What about guys that shave their legs just for cosmetic purposes? 😀

 

[TravellinDoc]

Hey PP, there's a difference between being confident and being an a$$. Case in point with Jesswise. You come off as uncaring and pretentious, that's how people are gonna take you.

 

[Fenrezz]

Originally posted by prettypea
But I'm a man!

You've got issues.

 

[uclacrewdude]

i'm dumb as rocks and i'm making the grade

 

[StrngoutAS]

I missed reading the Iran comment before it was edited, but even after the fact.... that was in incredibly bad taste... joke or not.

 

[prettypea]

Originally posted by StrngoutAS
I missed reading the Iran comment before it was edited, but even after the fact.... that was in incredibly bad taste... joke or not.

you're right. i'm sorry.