For those of you with low gpas and average MCAT scores (in relation to schools you're applying to), who haven't published or started an organization or done anything else amazing, don't lose hope! That person was me a few months ago, when I almost didn't apply to UVA because I thought I was nowhere near good enough for them. But today I was accepted, with a science gpa that's over 0.3 lower than their accepted average, cgpa also lower, and MCAT right at the average. You never know until you try! Below is something I wrote last night, when I never would have expected to get in. It's long, but I'm posting it because even behind people who seem really successful and put-together, the self-doubt is there. So, it's okay to doubt yourself at times, but just know that in the end, things usually turn out better than you think.
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The period of time between getting your first acceptance and starting med school is supposed to be the last time in your life that you’re able to fully relax pretty much until you retire, but I can’t relax right now. I’m finding out from UVA tomorrow, but I wish I weren’t because it’s making me too anxious to focus on doing anything. I wish that the notification could be in December or January, like the other schools that I’ve interviewed at, so I wouldn’t think about it now. Clearly that pumpkin spice latte this afternoon was a mistake, because although it kept me more awake through class, it also made me even more anxious than before. Reading SDN hasn’t helped, because there’s complete silence on the UVA thread and I don’t really care about any of the other threads right now.
I should really just stop worrying and move on with my life, because I probably won’t get in. My luck is going to run out now, I know it. I’ve been way too lucky for the most part throughout my premed journey and application cycle, and I’m unwilling to believe that it will continue. Getting an interview invite from UVA was already beyond anything I could have imagined or hoped for this cycle, when my science gpa is 3.5_ and their average is 3.87. Even when I was interviewing there, with my name tag on, I felt like an imposter because I didn’t know what they saw in me to offer me an interview. Everyone else was so smart and accomplished, and then there was me. Yes, I have a 36 MCAT, but I’m telling you, it’s purely because I got lucky. Extremely lucky. Having the opportunity to visit the school, eat its delicious lunch and interact with its friendly students has already been incredible enough, and I can’t ask for anything more. I probably won’t get an acceptance tomorrow, but if that acceptance goes to someone more qualified than me, someone who is still waiting for their first acceptance, someone who worked harder than me for the past few years, I would be happy. Someone else out there deserves this more than I do, and anyway, I already have an acceptance. Of course I’m still trying to get into a better school, but the truth is that no matter where you go, there’s always going to be a better school unless you go to Harvard, JHU, or WashU. If I get into UVA I would wish that my gpa and MCAT could be just a little higher so I could go to a school like Michigan or Columbia, in the same way that I would wish I could go to a school like UVA if I went to EVMS. There’s no difference. The only difference is that if UVA accepts a better candidate than you, it would be better for them. In the long run, it really doesn’t make much difference whether you went to EVMS or UVA for med school, so just stop worrying about it.