Hello! And thank you in advance for reading through this post.
I am a non traditional pre med student who graduated undergrad with a 2.7 GPA and just finished an SMP this semester with a 3.1 GPA. In undergrad I loaded my course schedule extensively, was involved in multiple extracurriculars, and dealing with a very strenuous family issue that impeded my academic career. As a result, my advisor at the time recommended I apply to an SMP, and I entered using a GRE score instead of my MCAT as soon as I could after graduating. I rushed into this process before even analyzing what went wrong in undergrad in order to refine my study skills before I started this journey. In the middle of my SMP I faced housing insecurity due to a rather financially abusive household and spent more time working trying to make ends meet for myself and do my academic work and extracurriculars. In short, I dug myself a deeper hole. I last took my MCAT 3 years ago and was at 500 on my second attempt. I was considering a third attempt because my most recent AAMC practice test score was 512. I am aware I need to have way above a 510 to even be considered for another SMP/post bacc.
Apart from my academic numbers I have 2 years of scribing experience in the US and 2 years of scribing in Saudi Arabia while I lived there with my family (I'm from the US but we moved there for my dad's job for 10 years before moving back to the US), have 2 years of graduate research experience, volunteered as a crisis counselor with Crisis Text line for 2 years, was one of the leaders of 2 major community outreach programs in undergrad and 1 in my SMP program, and tutored elementary to high school students at times.
I have always seen myself in the medical field. The sciences is all I have ever loved and enjoy studying greatly, but I feel time and time again I have not been able to even show my understanding due to extraneous situations that I do not solve fully before engaging in my next strategy. I would just like some advice if it's even worth pursuing this path anymore. I would do the MCAT and find ways to uplift my GPA as many times as needed to show my dedication to this even if it means doing another SMP or do a post bacc next school year or a few years down the line. Would this sort of student even be considered even if I show a consistent upward trend in my next round of schooling with a high GPA or should I toss these dreams away and pursue something else within medicine?
Thank you very much to whoever reads this. My apologies for making this long!
This is exactly what you're doing, once again. Unless all of the stressors that you have mentioned magically disappear, there is no reason for you to believe that you will suddenly perform like a rockstar if you choose to launch immediately into more coursework. And you will continue to dig a further hole.time and time again I have not been able to even show my understanding due to extraneous situations that I do not solve fully before engaging in my next strategy.
It's time to take a step back from this career path and regroup. Find something else that will make you happy, at least in the short term. After several years doing something else and after finding a secure financial footing, you can consider whether it's worth doubling back and trying again.