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I received my MCAT score yesterday and I have to say I've been crushed-- all of my dreams of getting into the med schools that I've been wanting to attend, all four years of doing nothing in my life but think about and work towards medical school, I feel like have all been in vain.
I have sacrificed so much (health, relationships, time with family, etc) with this one goal in mind, and now I am completely burned out. I hoped that a good MCAT score would help me regain my energy to work on secondaries, but after yesterday I feel like giving everything up. I already spent so much money on this application cycle (extremely low-income family but was not able to do FAP in time so we're paying everything out of pocket which has been an extremely large burden on us) so I have no choice but to keep trucking along with the process, but my motivation levels right now are so low that I don't know what to do.
I've been having trouble going to sleep last night and getting out of bed this morning. And to think that I still have to share this news to my parents and already predicting their reaction is killing me; they too have sacrificed so much and have done so much for me with the hopes that I am able to achieve my dreams, and I feel so ashamed and disappointed in myself to have not been able to do that, all because of one 3-digit number.
Right now I feel like an empty shell and completely lost, distraught, depressed.
Does anyone have advice on how to stay motivated to complete my secondaries after knowing that all of my aspirations, which have been somewhat within reach, have now become foolish dreams?
I can't look at my essays anymore without crying-- honestly I'm crying as I'm writing this
Please help. I'm at the end of the ropes right now. Superficially saying that "everything will be okay" has not been helping me up my mood at all...but I'm desperate for advice, for reassurance, just any support from people because I am also lonely af here without a strong support system around me which has been making things even worse
I have sacrificed so much (health, relationships, time with family, etc) with this one goal in mind, and now I am completely burned out. I hoped that a good MCAT score would help me regain my energy to work on secondaries, but after yesterday I feel like giving everything up. I already spent so much money on this application cycle (extremely low-income family but was not able to do FAP in time so we're paying everything out of pocket which has been an extremely large burden on us) so I have no choice but to keep trucking along with the process, but my motivation levels right now are so low that I don't know what to do.
I've been having trouble going to sleep last night and getting out of bed this morning. And to think that I still have to share this news to my parents and already predicting their reaction is killing me; they too have sacrificed so much and have done so much for me with the hopes that I am able to achieve my dreams, and I feel so ashamed and disappointed in myself to have not been able to do that, all because of one 3-digit number.
Right now I feel like an empty shell and completely lost, distraught, depressed.
Does anyone have advice on how to stay motivated to complete my secondaries after knowing that all of my aspirations, which have been somewhat within reach, have now become foolish dreams?
I can't look at my essays anymore without crying-- honestly I'm crying as I'm writing this
Please help. I'm at the end of the ropes right now. Superficially saying that "everything will be okay" has not been helping me up my mood at all...but I'm desperate for advice, for reassurance, just any support from people because I am also lonely af here without a strong support system around me which has been making things even worse
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