Depressed pre-medical student?

[hopefulpsychiatrist]

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EVERY SEMESTER IT IS TIME TO RETURN TO COLLEGE AND I GET AN OVERWHELMINGLY SICK FEELING THAT TAKES OVER MY ENTIRE BEING.


All I AM IS AN HONORS STUDENT, ALL I AM IS THE GOLDEN CHILD, ALL I AM IS AN ASPIRING DOCTOR, ALL I AM IS YOUR FAVORITE DAUGHTER, FAVORITE SISTER, FAVORITE COUSIN, YOUR ROLE MODEL, ALL I AM IS DEPENDABLE, YOUR SHOULDER TO CRY ON AND ALWAYS THE ONE WHO MAKES TIME TO LISTEN, ALL I AM IS EVERYONE'S THERAPIST. BUT NONE OF THAT MATTERS TO ME BECAUSE I AM HORRIBLY DEPRESSED, AND I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO ONE, AND I WOULD TRADE IT ALL FOR HAPPINESS. I HAVE FEW LIFE STORIES TO TELL BECAUSE I’VE LIVED EVERY YEAR OF MY LIFE UNDER A CLOUD, I’VE NEVER LIVED. ALL I AM IS MY GRADES, ALL I AM IS HOW HARD I STUDY, ALL I AM IS EATING ALONE IN THE DINING HALL, ALL I AM IS THAT GIRL SITTING ALONE THAT EVERYONE WALKS PAST AND I PRAY SOMEONE NOTICES ME AND JUST ASKS IF THEY CAN BORROW MY SALT. THESE FOUR WALLS TO MY BEDROOM AT HOME, THESE FOUR WALLS TO MY DORM ARE THE ONLY EYES OF MY YEARS OF PAIN.

 

[JustAPhD]

Your school should have a mental health therapist on staff, make an appointment asap.

Also, for futures sake, caps lock burns the retinas.

 

[Gryffindor20]

You need to go talk to someone. The posters on SDN are not equipped to help you in the way that you need. There is so much more to life than grades, extracurriculars, and all the other pre-med stuff. You must, either today or tomorrow, make an appointment to talk to your school's mental health counselor. It is impossible to become a physician, to heal patients, when you yourself are suffering so terribly.

I'm sending you hugs. Go and get yourself some help. You deserve to feel better.

 

[Luka75]

The posters on SDN are not equipped to help you in the way that you need.

+1... The posters on SDN are by and large the opposite of those that can actually help

 

[deleted738762]

WOW! Calm down!

 

[Goro]

Get some counseling, STAT, or your medical career will be over.

Seeking help is not a sign of weakness nor a loss of face.

EVERY SEMESTER IT IS TIME TO RETURN TO COLLEGE AND I GET AN OVERWHELMINGLY SICK FEELING THAT TAKES OVER MY ENTIRE BEING.


All I AM IS AN HONORS STUDENT, ALL I AM IS THE GOLDEN CHILD, ALL I AM IS AN ASPIRING DOCTOR, ALL I AM IS YOUR FAVORITE DAUGHTER, FAVORITE SISTER, FAVORITE COUSIN, YOUR ROLE MODEL, ALL I AM IS DEPENDABLE, YOUR SHOULDER TO CRY ON AND ALWAYS THE ONE WHO MAKES TIME TO LISTEN, ALL I AM IS EVERYONE'S THERAPIST. BUT NONE OF THAT MATTERS TO ME BECAUSE I AM HORRIBLY DEPRESSED, AND I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO ONE, AND I WOULD TRADE IT ALL FOR HAPPINESS. I HAVE FEW LIFE STORIES TO TELL BECAUSE I’VE LIVED EVERY YEAR OF MY LIFE UNDER A CLOUD, I’VE NEVER LIVED. ALL I AM IS MY GRADES, ALL I AM IS HOW HARD I STUDY, ALL I AM IS EATING ALONE IN THE DINING HALL, ALL I AM IS THAT GIRL SITTING ALONE THAT EVERYONE WALKS PAST AND I PRAY SOMEONE NOTICES ME AND JUST ASKS IF THEY CAN BORROW MY SALT. THESE FOUR WALLS TO MY BEDROOM AT HOME, THESE FOUR WALLS TO MY DORM ARE THE ONLY EYES OF MY YEARS OF PAIN.

 

[Turkishking]

I'd eat lunch with you.. 🙂

 

[WedgeDawg]

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