I'm a prelim medicine PGY-1 at a nice academic medical center. I applied to derm last year as a senior and only matched to intern year. I'm reapplying this year, but I'm having second thoughts about my career choice.
I did a short 2-week academic derm elective earlier this year, and I felt a little disappointed. The field seemed different as a resident than it did as a medical student--the residents were so stressed out with overbooked clinics and high expectations from faculty, and I felt a little disappointed with all the boring "let's switch this ointment to this other one" on a PsA patient when the rheumatologists got to do all the cool stuff with biologics. On the other hand, as a resident, I appreciate the derm lifestyle way more than I did as a student. I also appreciated how fun it is to mix the day up with surgeries and procedures, and I'm even more impressed than I ever was as a student at the awesome diagnostic prowess of most derms. I still love the subject matter of derm. But I struggled with not feeling like a "real doctor" compared to my other IM rotations this year.
Basically, what I'm trying to say is that I think I would still be very happy with a career in derm, but for the first time, I can actually see myself being okay with something else.
I reapplied this year and started getting some interviews (so far I'm at 2, for what that's worth). My IM PD is really happy with my performance in the program and offered to let me stay on to finish a categorical IM residency. I would say that I would probably be equally happy in derm, rheum, or ID. Obviously the stressfulness of the training and the reimbursement as an attending are way better for derm than for rheum or ID, and since I like all three fields, that's kind of swaying me. I'm now deciding whether I should give up on derm (doing so would be the path of least resistance, but the thought of an extra two years in IM is pretty intimidating), or whether I should keep pushing for derm. The worst outcome of all would be turning down this chance to finish a residency and become board-certified in at least something that I like, then not matching in derm either, and ending up with nowhere to go next year, my loans due, and my career in the toilet. My PD wants to know my decision by the end of the December, and since creating a new residency spot for me entails sticking his neck out, he only wants to do it if I am absolutely sure that IM is what I want.
The number of people I can speak freely to about this is very limited, so I would really love advice from anyone on this.
How many derm interviews would you have to get to feel confident turning down the offer to finish a categorical IM residency? And what would you do in my shoes? Has anyone else struggled to choose between derm and IM?
P.S. As far as stats, my steps are ~260, I'm AOA, have 4 pubs and 2 posters, half derm. So derm is not some crazy reach for me at least given the stats.
I did a short 2-week academic derm elective earlier this year, and I felt a little disappointed. The field seemed different as a resident than it did as a medical student--the residents were so stressed out with overbooked clinics and high expectations from faculty, and I felt a little disappointed with all the boring "let's switch this ointment to this other one" on a PsA patient when the rheumatologists got to do all the cool stuff with biologics. On the other hand, as a resident, I appreciate the derm lifestyle way more than I did as a student. I also appreciated how fun it is to mix the day up with surgeries and procedures, and I'm even more impressed than I ever was as a student at the awesome diagnostic prowess of most derms. I still love the subject matter of derm. But I struggled with not feeling like a "real doctor" compared to my other IM rotations this year.
Basically, what I'm trying to say is that I think I would still be very happy with a career in derm, but for the first time, I can actually see myself being okay with something else.
I reapplied this year and started getting some interviews (so far I'm at 2, for what that's worth). My IM PD is really happy with my performance in the program and offered to let me stay on to finish a categorical IM residency. I would say that I would probably be equally happy in derm, rheum, or ID. Obviously the stressfulness of the training and the reimbursement as an attending are way better for derm than for rheum or ID, and since I like all three fields, that's kind of swaying me. I'm now deciding whether I should give up on derm (doing so would be the path of least resistance, but the thought of an extra two years in IM is pretty intimidating), or whether I should keep pushing for derm. The worst outcome of all would be turning down this chance to finish a residency and become board-certified in at least something that I like, then not matching in derm either, and ending up with nowhere to go next year, my loans due, and my career in the toilet. My PD wants to know my decision by the end of the December, and since creating a new residency spot for me entails sticking his neck out, he only wants to do it if I am absolutely sure that IM is what I want.
The number of people I can speak freely to about this is very limited, so I would really love advice from anyone on this.
How many derm interviews would you have to get to feel confident turning down the offer to finish a categorical IM residency? And what would you do in my shoes? Has anyone else struggled to choose between derm and IM?
P.S. As far as stats, my steps are ~260, I'm AOA, have 4 pubs and 2 posters, half derm. So derm is not some crazy reach for me at least given the stats.