so i spoke with the dean of students...he was really nice actually...he told me to relax, dont stress about it too much, and to just focus on the next set of exams coming up. We're actually gonna have a sit down and discuss what i can do better since he was a bit busy with meetings and stuff. He kept pointing out that i shouldn't let my confidence go down.....the truth is, i dont really have an ego...i failed before and ill fail again in things, thats life...i just freak out when i think they there is no way to bounce back. He was like dont worry man you have like 4 more tests in the class you can pass the course if you do well on them.
It was so embarrassing tho...right when i walked in he knew who i was and my score...i never actually met him before but the first encounter we have is regarding my failing test scores..yay lol. No but he was nice and i mean, i told him...listen, i dont care about feeling dumb or whatever...i understand where i messed up..i was sleeping in class and studying the general material without learning the real details that were important...i was doubting the classes to be giving such detailed tests..now i know what to expect.
I wasn't a science major, and only took the basic pre-reqs, not saying its an excuse...actually yeah i am saying its an excuse lol, all my friends here have strong science backgrounds. He assured me that i will be ok, if i make big study habit changes i should be ok.
study habits i tried for the last test that didn't really work out too well....
1. typing notes on powerpoint during lecture
2. not writing anything and just listening
3. recording lectures on a recorder and hearing it later.
4. making flashcards
5. recording my own voice talking about the material and hearing it later
6. making outlines
7. answering lecture bullpoints
8. working in groups
9. studying alone in my room
10. reading the book
some of these are good...but none of them really hit home..i haven't been like "YES THIS IS MY STRATEGY!" yet. I haven't had that "aha!" moment...im still figuring this whole med school thing out honestly.
The anatomy professor was giving a lecture on time management and studying techniques, i came to him after class and told him everything i tried that didnt work....he said to put the computer away...bring paper and a pen, and just write things by hand in class.
So i print out the powerponits and just write on them. Im finding that i like this method much more than just staring at my mac-book for 6 hours...i like drawing and making notes...making big letters, small letters, small phrases to help me remember.
I would say that i did put the hours in...but it was not enough...i never had a chance to go over all the material...maybe just like 70% of it, there is just sooo much..not enough time...its crazy....i dont know how you guys do it...its seriously overwhelming.
I was a liberal arts major, to me..a difficult week is having 4 papers to write and a group project to turn in. They are difficult, but in a different way...its more intellectual stamina..but in med school im finding that you need pure muscle power stamina...its like the brain is a muscle and im trying to bench wayy over my max....that's actually a pretty terrible analogy but you get the idea lol.
So right now...im off social media..off my phone...off all distractions (this is my break btw)...im sitting in the libary...notes printed out...and im just reading, writing, going over them as much as i can...and im trying to REPEAT things..as much as i can, not just going over them once.
ill keep you guys posted...hopefully i can bounce back and be an example of what it means to change a work ethic in med school....or maybe ill just falter and things wont be so swell.