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I graduated from college more than half a year ago, and am in the process of studying for the MCAT and volunteering at various places so that I can apply for medical school in the summer. I didn't think seriously about what I wanted to do with my life until the last semester of college, thinking I would work in a lab or something since I majored in biology. Anyhow, after a lot of thought, I decided that I wanted to be a doctor. Sometimes, I just feel really depressed about the whole process; that I won't get into any medical school, that my efforts will just be wasted.
I thought I wanted to do research in ecology and evolution in graduate school, so my only EC's in college were research in those fields (and none of it was too extensive either). I didn't do any medically related EC's, or any EC's at all really other than the research. I do admit back in college, especially in the earlier years, I was still adjusting socially, and am naturally rather shy. I also have self-esteem issues, which were compounded by attending a top school when I came from modest background. My GPA is nothing spectacular, and like I said, my EC's are nonexistent (though I am working on them during the gap year).
I remember trying to look for a job during my senior year of college, but all I got were rejections (I realize a lot of my classmates had similar experiences, but it's still highly discouraging). Even now sometimes I'll go online and randomly try to look for a job, and my heart sinks because I know it probably won't happen. Biology degrees are useless.
I can't help feeling that I'm just wasting my time. I'm studying for the MCAT (at least I'm trying to...) and I'm volunteering at a few places, but what if it's not enough to apply this summer? I'll be wasting my time and my parents will be disappointed. I come from a poor family, and I don't know if they can help me much longer while I live off of them, trying to attain a dream that may be highly unattainable at best.
Anyone in a similar situation? Words of wisdom? Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest.
I thought I wanted to do research in ecology and evolution in graduate school, so my only EC's in college were research in those fields (and none of it was too extensive either). I didn't do any medically related EC's, or any EC's at all really other than the research. I do admit back in college, especially in the earlier years, I was still adjusting socially, and am naturally rather shy. I also have self-esteem issues, which were compounded by attending a top school when I came from modest background. My GPA is nothing spectacular, and like I said, my EC's are nonexistent (though I am working on them during the gap year).
I remember trying to look for a job during my senior year of college, but all I got were rejections (I realize a lot of my classmates had similar experiences, but it's still highly discouraging). Even now sometimes I'll go online and randomly try to look for a job, and my heart sinks because I know it probably won't happen. Biology degrees are useless.
I can't help feeling that I'm just wasting my time. I'm studying for the MCAT (at least I'm trying to...) and I'm volunteering at a few places, but what if it's not enough to apply this summer? I'll be wasting my time and my parents will be disappointed. I come from a poor family, and I don't know if they can help me much longer while I live off of them, trying to attain a dream that may be highly unattainable at best.
Anyone in a similar situation? Words of wisdom? Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest.