I'm a PhD student and met my partner in his first year of residency. Three years later, we live together and he's looking for clinical jobs while I finish my degree. We are in our late 20s, very happy together, and serious about the future.
My partner has struggled to feel at home in medicine -- miserable throughout med school, switched out of his specialty because he hated it -- but has finally found a path he enjoys. His mentors have encouraged him to apply to an amazing, competitive two-year fellowship. However, it would require that he relocate to another state, and potentially to pretty undesirable places.
I really want to be excited for him... but, as his partner, I'm very anxious about being separated for so long. We've been LDR short-term during his rotations, and it has been hard for me to feel connected. It is also unlikely that I can follow him to this fellowship, given that I have my own training and academic job ambitions. He doesn't know when he'd apply for this fellowship, so maybe I'm getting ahead of myself, but it feels like something that should be addressed up front.
When I've brought up reservations about his moving away in the past (e.g., for rotations), he has gotten very defensive and resentful. To be clear, I do not want to hold him back from doing what he wants, and my intention is not to guilt him. I just want to be transparent about how I feel and what these decisions mean for our relationship. For the record, he has made major, unsolicited compromises for me, including staying in our city when switching specialties and while looking for jobs. However, he's very pragmatic and can't make guarantees about the future.
Am I reasonable in my concerns? How can I have these conversations in productive ways? Basically, how can I support my partner in his goals if they aren't aligned with our relationship? Any advice would be helpful.
My partner has struggled to feel at home in medicine -- miserable throughout med school, switched out of his specialty because he hated it -- but has finally found a path he enjoys. His mentors have encouraged him to apply to an amazing, competitive two-year fellowship. However, it would require that he relocate to another state, and potentially to pretty undesirable places.
I really want to be excited for him... but, as his partner, I'm very anxious about being separated for so long. We've been LDR short-term during his rotations, and it has been hard for me to feel connected. It is also unlikely that I can follow him to this fellowship, given that I have my own training and academic job ambitions. He doesn't know when he'd apply for this fellowship, so maybe I'm getting ahead of myself, but it feels like something that should be addressed up front.
When I've brought up reservations about his moving away in the past (e.g., for rotations), he has gotten very defensive and resentful. To be clear, I do not want to hold him back from doing what he wants, and my intention is not to guilt him. I just want to be transparent about how I feel and what these decisions mean for our relationship. For the record, he has made major, unsolicited compromises for me, including staying in our city when switching specialties and while looking for jobs. However, he's very pragmatic and can't make guarantees about the future.
Am I reasonable in my concerns? How can I have these conversations in productive ways? Basically, how can I support my partner in his goals if they aren't aligned with our relationship? Any advice would be helpful.