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I was doing it alright. My college career was going on great. Never really invested time in girls since I had my eye on the prize. Relationship was something I never wanted.In Spring I was studying for MCAT and preparing to apply for med schools. Everything was going great. Until my close friend broke up with her bf so I decided to play hero and tried to be there for her. Thus began late night philosophical chats about life, relationships, goals, struggles. One thing led to other we ended up hooking up. This friend became my priority. I had the best time of my life just being around her. We both told each other we are just friends who are hooking up but it felt more than just friends. In weeks I felt like shes all I wanted. After two months I went out of state for a summer research. Tried to detach myself from her but didn't work. I couldn't stop thinking about this girl. It felt like first love.
After I came back she starts ignoring me. She comes around once in a while to hang out with my roommate. My roommate also my bf says they are like brother and sisters. Didn't buy it went through his phone and bam they are hooking up now. I felt betrayed, rejected and defeated. A month later she tells me everything I forgave her. Dont ask me why I tried to be the bigger person i think. Stop talking to my roommate he moves out. The girl and I continue to be friend however all this time its killing me inside about what she did. Few months later at a party she hooks up w another guy I am drunk I tell her I liked her. Next day she freaks out we go separate ways.
This completely screwed me up. I was driven motivated and knew my ways. But after that I started smoking, drinking, got a dui, didn't pass one course so didn't graduate. I became a wreck. I mainly feel this way because she is a sociopath which now I know because everything she did was about her. Shes the most manipulative person I met she made her wrong doing completely justified. I had a 3.4 now I ended up w a 3.0.
I feel like a coward for letting one person in my life driving me away from my goals. Now I am fixing my wrongs w lot of money time and effort. I just wanted to write this.
After I came back she starts ignoring me. She comes around once in a while to hang out with my roommate. My roommate also my bf says they are like brother and sisters. Didn't buy it went through his phone and bam they are hooking up now. I felt betrayed, rejected and defeated. A month later she tells me everything I forgave her. Dont ask me why I tried to be the bigger person i think. Stop talking to my roommate he moves out. The girl and I continue to be friend however all this time its killing me inside about what she did. Few months later at a party she hooks up w another guy I am drunk I tell her I liked her. Next day she freaks out we go separate ways.
This completely screwed me up. I was driven motivated and knew my ways. But after that I started smoking, drinking, got a dui, didn't pass one course so didn't graduate. I became a wreck. I mainly feel this way because she is a sociopath which now I know because everything she did was about her. Shes the most manipulative person I met she made her wrong doing completely justified. I had a 3.4 now I ended up w a 3.0.
I feel like a coward for letting one person in my life driving me away from my goals. Now I am fixing my wrongs w lot of money time and effort. I just wanted to write this.
