Empathy works both way, buddy. You don't even realize how ridiculous you sound by touting all this "if I can't be a doctor then I'm killing myself" nonsense. I've had the misfortune of living through the suicides of far too many people in my life, and to have such a juvenile outlook on life is appalling.
From the the way you put things, you're probably getting in eventually, but, in the meantime, get some help.
Whatever. Anecdotal experience about suicides to detract from statements insinuating that careers are not important and that I did the "wrong" things in undergrad is constructing a straw man argument. All I'm saying is you come off as juvenile, not me- because clearly you fail to understand the weight of that acceptance letter in my life. Which is why I say that you clearly took the easy route- for you to think that my contemplating suicide is "a juvenile outlook on life." I'm done here.