It may not be binary but how would somebody stand out from a mid ranked MD school that does P/F, no rankings, without a step 1 score? I’m sure I could have got a high score considering I’ve always done well on exams (sat, MCAT etc.) but it won’t really make a difference.
I’ll be content being any type of doctor for the most part, but part of me will probably always wonder what could have been. I know this sounds like moving goalposts, but I’m just wondering what options will be available to mid tier md students in a post-step1 world.
Aren’t the high match rates advertised by medical schools due to extreme self-selection?
You're going to pursue your passion, whatever that turns out to be. You'll do research. You'll make connections. You'll do away rotations.
And, if you distinguish yourself, you'll be recognized and rewarded. Like people do every year, coming out of mid tier and below programs, who beat out people coming from the top schools in the country for some of the most competitive residency slots. Of course, they are the exception rather than the rule. But you are perfectly situated to be one of those exceptions, given the reason you will not be at a top school, if that turns out to be the case.
You are still you. Sure, top programs have great resources and connections, but the lack of those advantages are overcome by talented people every year.
The biggest reason top schools have amazing match lists is because they disproportionately have amazing students. It's worth keeping in mind, though, that every school has at least some amazing students, and they tend to excel wherever they go.
Don't you ever wonder how some people at HYPSM end up DO, reapplying, or having to find something else to do with their lives, while some people from Podunk U end up at HMS, Stanford, etc. each cycle? This is how, and it continues with residencies, fellowships, etc. It gets harder and harder as you move along in life, but the cream always tends to rise to the top.
At least you are holding true to form, continually moving the goalposts. First you just wanted a few IIs. Then a few more. Then a few more. Then you just wanted an A. Anywhere. Now all you want is "cardiology and hematology/oncology."
Maybe just do your best, be thrilled that you are not going to be stuck doing whatever it is that you are doing now, and take it from there? A little armchair analysis from someone who has never met you -- try to chill out and realize that, whatever you achieve, you are going to be dissatisfied because there is going to be something "better" that you won't be able to do. Better school, residency, fellowship, specialty, whatever.
I bet on you when you started posting, and I won. I'm going to keep betting on you. Unless, of course, this is all an elaborate troll, because you are honestly doing way too well, given all you have been through, to seriously be worrying about this. Maybe try to relax a little and have faith in yourself.
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