Hey Well, my predicament is this. When I first entered college, I was a physics major. As a naive freshman, I wanted to learn about the world, and try to understand truth in its most pure mathematical elegance and so on and so forth. However, after talking to people and researching, I learned that a typical career in theoretical or quantum physics is not glamorous at all, but in fact, pretty terrible. So as my parents have urged me since birth, I decided on a pre-med major. Now, don't get me wrong, I believe that a human body is extremely intriguing, just as interesting as the entire universe because well, there is an almost meta interaction going on, especially in terms of neurology/psychiatry. Reading Oliver Sacks' books have really piqued my interest in neurology; the human mind is much more complex than we ever thought it was. Now after shadowing and volunteering and talking to my peers, I am beginning to have doubts, not of my ability, but of my personality that clashes with typical workers of medicine. I love dark humor, such as that of George Carlin. I believe that the world would be a better place if people abandoned religion. My personal philosophy seesaws between existentialism and nihilism. I don't believe that people are born equal, nor will they ever be. Sometimes I find myself desiring the company of music and art rather than the people I'm with. I smoke occasionally, and used to blaze regularly. In short, I am not a typical premed student in terms of personality, will this drive me insane if I choose a career in medicine? Would a medical research career better fit me? Am I naive for believing that it matters at all?