TheCryingCloud
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Hi all.
I'm experiencing a wave of distress. Long story short, I did awful in undergrad. Literally all throughout undergrad with some good grades scattered throughout. Chemistry has been my primary problem child with numerous repeats and withdrawals. My most recent awful grade being a in 'D' in Orgo II for my last semester in undergrad this past January.
I am currently working on an informal postbacc at CC, and it's been hitting me so hard lately that what if I'm wasting time and money? My postbacc has been going well so far *knocks on wood* and I currently have a 3.8 gpa with 47 credits. However, because I took an insane number of credits in undergrad (I spent 8 1/2 years.....), my gpa is permanently trash, and I'm doubtful that it will get over a 3.0 for both my cumulative and science. I really wanted to reapply (yes, my idiotic behind actually applied last year) next cycle, but I've been hit with several waves of emotions and a ton of self-doubt.
I went the DIY postbacc at a CC route strictly due to finances. I'm considering taking a course at UC Berkeley Extension in the spring, but one course is pretty much my entire monthly income. So, I'll have to move mountains to make it work financially. I'm just really stressed out and doubting myself now. I was okay and in good spirits the last few months, but last night this realization and wave of self-doubt hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm feeling like how I did when I was put on academic probation 6 years ago. Hopeless as ever. I feel like my plan has been dismantled and feel blurry eyed. I'm so mad at myselfn and down, I can't even pray about it lol (disregard if you're not religious xd).
Has anyone been in a similar situation? How did you keep pushing forward? How do you overcome such negative thoughts about your journey?
I'm experiencing a wave of distress. Long story short, I did awful in undergrad. Literally all throughout undergrad with some good grades scattered throughout. Chemistry has been my primary problem child with numerous repeats and withdrawals. My most recent awful grade being a in 'D' in Orgo II for my last semester in undergrad this past January.
I am currently working on an informal postbacc at CC, and it's been hitting me so hard lately that what if I'm wasting time and money? My postbacc has been going well so far *knocks on wood* and I currently have a 3.8 gpa with 47 credits. However, because I took an insane number of credits in undergrad (I spent 8 1/2 years.....), my gpa is permanently trash, and I'm doubtful that it will get over a 3.0 for both my cumulative and science. I really wanted to reapply (yes, my idiotic behind actually applied last year) next cycle, but I've been hit with several waves of emotions and a ton of self-doubt.
I went the DIY postbacc at a CC route strictly due to finances. I'm considering taking a course at UC Berkeley Extension in the spring, but one course is pretty much my entire monthly income. So, I'll have to move mountains to make it work financially. I'm just really stressed out and doubting myself now. I was okay and in good spirits the last few months, but last night this realization and wave of self-doubt hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm feeling like how I did when I was put on academic probation 6 years ago. Hopeless as ever. I feel like my plan has been dismantled and feel blurry eyed. I'm so mad at myselfn and down, I can't even pray about it lol (disregard if you're not religious xd).
Has anyone been in a similar situation? How did you keep pushing forward? How do you overcome such negative thoughts about your journey?