It's funny half way into intern year and every day I rush home wanting to cry like a baby. I m doing my ICU and don't get home post call until 1pm and the whole night there I want to be at home and become so depressed and scared as patients begin to cry. Whatever happened to that little kid who wanted to be a doctor and wanted to help and change the world?? Well that kid is gone intern year has officially killed me. I am soo depressed. Me a grown adult, going home to cry makes me realize how depressed I m. I am not that type of person but the fear I feel each night, and deep depression and dealing with so many insensitive people each day it's just too much at times. I remember how exited I was about the prospect of residency last year and yet now I can't wait for it to end. I just hate it. I look foward to my vacation in mid march for two weeks so I can get away from the hospital for a short bit. I just can't take it anymore. I think I am going to break down.