- Joined
- Mar 19, 2016
- Messages
- 12
- Reaction score
- 35
This is a throw-away account. I just learned that I matched low on my list, which is massively devastating for my family. This was unforeseen, as I ranked by geography, which included 2 non competitive programs in a non-competitive specialty. The program I ended up at is a good one for sure...but for my spouse and kids, again, devastating doesn't begin to describe it.
I realize that my matched program doesn't deserve to be short a resident after demonstrating faith in me. With that said, I am a non-trad who had a great career beforehand. I have plenty of student debt, but in short, I want OUT. I consider myself to be one of the few for whom suicide matching would have been the best option. I feel that life is too short to continue on this soul-crushing path, especially at the expense of my family. Also, my program deserves a complement of residents that will be "all in", and truthfully, I won't be. Insert obvious statement here: I should only have ranked places I was willing to go. Well, that ship has sailed. May others learn from my idiocy.
To sum it up: I want out. I want to forget med school ever happened and go back to my prior career, debt be damned. I realize that I'm still very shell shocked and would like to hear of a) others who pulled out of their match commitments and b) general thoughts on ramifications of this that I may not have thought of yet. Much appreciation to respondants, and congrats to those who are happy with their match results.
I realize that my matched program doesn't deserve to be short a resident after demonstrating faith in me. With that said, I am a non-trad who had a great career beforehand. I have plenty of student debt, but in short, I want OUT. I consider myself to be one of the few for whom suicide matching would have been the best option. I feel that life is too short to continue on this soul-crushing path, especially at the expense of my family. Also, my program deserves a complement of residents that will be "all in", and truthfully, I won't be. Insert obvious statement here: I should only have ranked places I was willing to go. Well, that ship has sailed. May others learn from my idiocy.
To sum it up: I want out. I want to forget med school ever happened and go back to my prior career, debt be damned. I realize that I'm still very shell shocked and would like to hear of a) others who pulled out of their match commitments and b) general thoughts on ramifications of this that I may not have thought of yet. Much appreciation to respondants, and congrats to those who are happy with their match results.