So I am pretty messed up. I m in my mid twenties and going into my second year of pharmacy school. Before I applied to pharmacy school, I was in a post bac with a gpa of 2.8 from georgetown; I got a 3.2 (3 Bs, 1A). I knew it was because I was dealing with a lot of internal issues (poor self-esteem,how dumb I was, and anger about the underserved population-I just hated the world and spent a lot of time thinking about how messed it was (esp after joining americorp)--im not trying to get sympathy im just being honest about my experience). Anyway, I dropped out of the post bac program after 1 semester to find myself and figure things out. After a year, I still didnt figure much out, but I hated not having direction and a purpose, so i decided to apply to pharm school with the hopes that I could still make some difference without directly dealing with the underserved (i thought it was too emotional for me). also, since my overall gpa sucked, and i performed so badly in the postbac, i wasnt emotionally mature to pursue med school. now, im in pharmacy school, have all a's and since the time i decided to apply to p school and now having finished a year im starting to reevaluate what ive done. after volunteering in diff clinics and dealing with that population again, i found that even tho it was difficult a few yrs ago, i really love helping them and i wish i could do more. after realizing the limitations of pharm as far as pt contact is not for me, i dont think i will be content doing this forever. so i dont know what to do... see, i told you. im pretty messed up. advice? pls be honest but not cruel.