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Alright, so this summer I did a research internship, except... well I HATED it. I was like miserable, really. Like really miserable. My experiment needed to be repeated and I knew that to finish by the time the program was over then I would need to put in some serious - more serious than before - hours.
I realize that some hate is normal with work, but this was beyond manageable. I was doing twice the work as the other kids.. weekends, early mornings, late nights, you name it. So instead of smiling and restarting the project, like I usually would have done. I approached my PI told her that though I had learned so much this summer, that I did not think I would be doing much research in the future. And asked if there were anyway that I could not repeat it, but instead have a few days for shadowing and focus on paper/poster/powerpoint that needed to be done for our program requirements.
I know this is terrible. The thing is, I don't plan on even applying to this med school. The professor isn't even associated with the med school. She teaches in the graduate department. The med school I want to attend is located far away from this one. The program director doesn't know my PI, she does know me, and she loves me.
As part of our program our PIs are asked to rate us on our research experience. My guess, this is going to be a very terrible rating. At first, I was willing to except this. Now I am starting to freak out. I mean obviously I am not going to use this person as a writer for my recommendation letter. Not a big concern for me, I have another professor I did research for and she also really likes me and said she would be more than happy to write me a letter.
I guess I am just freaking out now. I mean has anyone heard any horror stories of these internships going badly and costing in a big way??
Please save the "I can't believe you did that" comments. I know it was dumb. I know, I know, I know. I think I am more miserable now by not working 100% at it than I was earlier in the summer.
I'm so afraid guys..🙁
I realize that some hate is normal with work, but this was beyond manageable. I was doing twice the work as the other kids.. weekends, early mornings, late nights, you name it. So instead of smiling and restarting the project, like I usually would have done. I approached my PI told her that though I had learned so much this summer, that I did not think I would be doing much research in the future. And asked if there were anyway that I could not repeat it, but instead have a few days for shadowing and focus on paper/poster/powerpoint that needed to be done for our program requirements.
I know this is terrible. The thing is, I don't plan on even applying to this med school. The professor isn't even associated with the med school. She teaches in the graduate department. The med school I want to attend is located far away from this one. The program director doesn't know my PI, she does know me, and she loves me.
As part of our program our PIs are asked to rate us on our research experience. My guess, this is going to be a very terrible rating. At first, I was willing to except this. Now I am starting to freak out. I mean obviously I am not going to use this person as a writer for my recommendation letter. Not a big concern for me, I have another professor I did research for and she also really likes me and said she would be more than happy to write me a letter.
I guess I am just freaking out now. I mean has anyone heard any horror stories of these internships going badly and costing in a big way??
Please save the "I can't believe you did that" comments. I know it was dumb. I know, I know, I know. I think I am more miserable now by not working 100% at it than I was earlier in the summer.
I'm so afraid guys..🙁
