I have said this a lot of times. I don't think I'm one of the best doctors out there or should be one of the best. I do think, however, that I work hard, keep up with journals, try to at least do the standard of care if not better, and I end up being better than most I see.
And this frightens me.
What I do should be average, perhaps somewhat above average. People should be able to go to a doctor and be confident that their doctor is at least doing the standard-not by community standards but by academic standards.
This is a reason why I tell residents to work in academia a few years (unless they're just too swamped with debt) cause IMHO you're still too green and at least you can be surrounded by what I hope would be a at least a few good doctors to innoculate you against the poor practice that's out there.
Call it narcissism, what have you, but when I see a psychiatrist giving a patient Seroquel because "she's blue and Seroquel's a warm medication" despite that the pt was doing fine on her previous medication regimen Abilify, and ends up gaining 50 lbs from the Seroquel and becoming diabetic but that doc still adheres to the "she's blue" bull**** I'm going to think I'm better than that psychiatrist.
And I wish I wasn't making that story up. Triple facepalm. I felt bad for the patient. I told her to demand her doctor to switch meds. She was trapped in a forensic hospital and told me she was about 6 months from being released and didn't want to risk changing meds because it could keep her back for several more months.
I used to go home mad everyday from this type of dung. My wife told me that I either have to leave the job or figure out some way to not be mad about this. This is major reason why I left the state hospital/private practice and joined U of Cincinnati despite what was about a 75K paycut. There I was no longer the best in the hospital. I saw doctors that were better than me, just as good, maybe some worse but very few significantly worse. I'd go to department meetings, sit in a chair, and peer at literally over as dozen colleagues that were in the top 100 doctor category (the real one vs that BS one I mentioned above), or had several other prestigious real accomplishments that were great doctors but also good people. I was happier with that. It was a joy to see a guy know something I didn't and learn from that person and not have to deal with the "she's blue" bull**** anymore.