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OK, so I'm still volunteering at a community hospital ER and still hoping to begin post-bacc coursework this coming summer or fall. The ER volunteering, while a good experience, doesn't provide me with any contact with doctors or allow me to observe actual treatment or procedures, so I'm wondering if I should do some shadowing too.
It's not that I'm really longing to shadow doctors, but I'm still a bit worried about my decision to enter medicine. Sometimes I think I really want to do it; other times, like when I see people here and on OPM saying that medicine is so difficult that you have to want to do it for its own sake, that the future's so uncertian, that you shouldn't care about money or prestige at all, that you'll make it only if you love medicine so much that you'd do it if it paid 50k per year, or heck, if you had to pay to do it... I'm not sure. I do think I'll enjoy it, but I think part of me does care about money and prestige. If I have to sacrifice 10 years of my life only to come out the other end and find my income capped at 80k per year, and myself forced to work for the government or an HMO, while I'm sued for every move I make, well, frankly, I don't consider that worth it. I can't pretend that I'm that selfless. The devil's-advocate questions supposedly asked in interviews have it right: if I really just wanted to give up all my worldly possessions and help the poor, I'd become a social worker or join the Peace Corps.
As I understand it (correct me if I'm wrong), the purpose of shadowing is to confront oneself with these issues, so that one can look oneself in the mirror and say "I know all about what medicine entails, and I'm 100% sure I want to it, no matter what." So I've been thinking I should do some shadowing. The problem is, I don't know where to look. All the doctors I've talked to so far (admittedly, they're all ones I've met through my uncle, so they are part of a limited circle) have given me advice that somewhat conflicts with what I read online. They all seemed to think grades & MCATs are the only things that matter, downplaying things like community service, clinical experience, and doing long and hard soul-searching to determine that this is really what I want--their advice was basically "just take the classes and apply." None of them seemed to have even heard of the concept of shadowing, and were a little perplexed as to why someone would want to have an ongoing arrangement to follow them around at work all day. They seemed to think that just talking to doctors would give me all the insight I needed. When I've then turned around and told people on SDN and OPM that this is what doctors in real-life are telling me, they have told me that that's because these docs, having been through the system more than 10 years ago, aren't aware of how it's changed recently. Still, I don't know quite what to think.
Has anyone here done shadowing and found it truly worthwhile, by which I mean it actually helped you make the decision, or at least gave you some valuable experience which you believe helped you later on? And given that the contacts I've made through my one relative in medicine don't seem keen on shadowing, how does one find more receptive docs? Just pull out the yellow pages and start writing letters?
It's not that I'm really longing to shadow doctors, but I'm still a bit worried about my decision to enter medicine. Sometimes I think I really want to do it; other times, like when I see people here and on OPM saying that medicine is so difficult that you have to want to do it for its own sake, that the future's so uncertian, that you shouldn't care about money or prestige at all, that you'll make it only if you love medicine so much that you'd do it if it paid 50k per year, or heck, if you had to pay to do it... I'm not sure. I do think I'll enjoy it, but I think part of me does care about money and prestige. If I have to sacrifice 10 years of my life only to come out the other end and find my income capped at 80k per year, and myself forced to work for the government or an HMO, while I'm sued for every move I make, well, frankly, I don't consider that worth it. I can't pretend that I'm that selfless. The devil's-advocate questions supposedly asked in interviews have it right: if I really just wanted to give up all my worldly possessions and help the poor, I'd become a social worker or join the Peace Corps.
As I understand it (correct me if I'm wrong), the purpose of shadowing is to confront oneself with these issues, so that one can look oneself in the mirror and say "I know all about what medicine entails, and I'm 100% sure I want to it, no matter what." So I've been thinking I should do some shadowing. The problem is, I don't know where to look. All the doctors I've talked to so far (admittedly, they're all ones I've met through my uncle, so they are part of a limited circle) have given me advice that somewhat conflicts with what I read online. They all seemed to think grades & MCATs are the only things that matter, downplaying things like community service, clinical experience, and doing long and hard soul-searching to determine that this is really what I want--their advice was basically "just take the classes and apply." None of them seemed to have even heard of the concept of shadowing, and were a little perplexed as to why someone would want to have an ongoing arrangement to follow them around at work all day. They seemed to think that just talking to doctors would give me all the insight I needed. When I've then turned around and told people on SDN and OPM that this is what doctors in real-life are telling me, they have told me that that's because these docs, having been through the system more than 10 years ago, aren't aware of how it's changed recently. Still, I don't know quite what to think.
Has anyone here done shadowing and found it truly worthwhile, by which I mean it actually helped you make the decision, or at least gave you some valuable experience which you believe helped you later on? And given that the contacts I've made through my one relative in medicine don't seem keen on shadowing, how does one find more receptive docs? Just pull out the yellow pages and start writing letters?