Isn't it ironic?

[ici_cute]

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I failed my surgery course, and now I have to repeat the whole year. It's funny enought that right now, I don't seem to have touble with that idea. The ironic thing is, other people do.

When I heard the news, I got depressed. I mean, who wouldn't? And that actually made me feel normal! It took me two days before I could call home and tell it to my family (I got a BIG family). After a week, I felt better. No more depression (at least caused by my own thoughts). I was uplifting. I was really positive (I never knew I could take it so well...so well that other people came to me for help).

But then, my family starts to see differently. I guess they didn't see me depress, didn't see me cry and exhausted, that they think I actually should be 'ashamed' of myself that I failed. After a couple of weeks of depression (longer than I was depressed about failing!), that I start telling them I was very grateful that I didn't go to psychiatry ward and start taking medications or even kill myself, only then my family starts to cool down.

What's with that? Do people have to see other people in a bad shape that they start to feel sorry and give uplifting comments? 😡

 

[sleepwhenimdead]

Are you doing okay?
I read your post and saw that no one had replied and wanted to see how you were holding up. I hope all is well. Family can be your strongest ally and sometimes your harshest critic. They were probably taking the lead from how you were acting. Take care and good luck.

 

[shag]

Sorry to hear about your surg rotation... Unfortunately, the harsh and stressful nature of medical education cannot truly be understood until you've gone through it. Your family/non-med friends could watch your life on a webcam, and still not understand fully.

For most med students, they are their own worst critics. If you work as hard as you can, and you know it, then anything that anyone else says is irrevelent.

Good Luck!