Polly Pockets- I'm PGY20 (also a nocturnist) and also very much feeling the burnout, so your post resonated a lot with me.
I've been doing a lot of soul-searching myself. For myself, I've decided to stay on for a bit longer. My FIRE date is in about 5.5 yrs, so I feel like it's worth holding onto it unless I really find something better.
Here are some insights I have which may be useful to you:
1) Dropping 10-15% of your shifts will give you an asymmetrical amount of joy relative to the income you are giving up. I went from 14 shifts/month to 12, and the difference has been life-changing. I'm more present with my family and kids, have more time to work out and take care of my health, have more time to travel, and have more time to recover. Highly recommend doing a trial of 10-20% less and seeing how it feels.
- The above effect is temporary. It all comes back, but it buys some time.
2) I've looked at non-EM jobs. Everything from investment firms (I'm probably not even qualified, honestly) to Tech to Urgent Care to UM. This made me realize that:
a) I like working nights when nobody else is working, and I like having the day off when everybody else is working.
b) Only working 12-14 days/month for 400k+ is amazing, and I'm not willing to give it up.
c) My current job situation gives me a lot of time with my kids
d) Very few jobs out there allow you to titrate the amount of work you do to the amount of income you need/the amount of time you want to spend at work
The point is that when we're burned out, we focus on the negatives. There are a few truly awesome things about being an ED doc, and a ED Noturnist especially.
3) It really helps to be specific about what is causing the burnout and to try to solve for that problem. There were two issues for me:
a) Patients- specifically the ratio of (nice patients having a rough day that I can help + patients with interesting pathology) to (dinguses + entitled people + TikTok fibromyalgia specialists + violent patients). Haven't solved it, but better by spending more time with nice folks and minimizing the time I spend with jerks as much as I can.
(Side note- the return of droperidol has added like 2 yrs to my career)
b) "The system"- specifically that the ED is the dumping ground for drunks, domestic violence without physical injury but with social needs, old folks who can't live at home anymore, etc etc. (New twist: my local police department is now bringing us every person they catch committing an act of violence that has a psych history.... "he tried to set fire to the school....must be his bipolar flaring up..." This cancels out all the gains from droperidol mentioned above.) We recently got a night social worker- which honestly has been amazing. As far as the "Social Admits"- my leadership team and that of the hospital have worked out a pathway of who and when patients get admitted for social reasons. It helps because it's not a new problem you have to solve every time it happens. Everyone is on the same page, and we just steer the workflow down the algorithm.
c) Malpractice risk- I was recently named to a malpractice suit about 2 yrs ago. I was just dropped, though they are still suing the Hospital. I really feel I did nothing wrong. The resulting injury to the patient is suspect. When I was first named, the stress was unbelievable (my only suit in 16 yrs as an attending). It changed my practice style in ways I didn't like. I've dialed back a lot of those changes. The stress slowly decreased, but never really went away. I work in a bad malpractice state, though the specific area of my state makes it somewhat better. I have contemplated moving or getting a job on the other side of the state line. If I ever get named again, it will probably be enough to push me over to the bordering state, even if it would be at least a 90-minute commute. For now, my "solution" is acceptance that this is always a risk and just a part of the job.
Ultimately, the upside of continuing my EM career was greater than the downside.... at least for now.
For you, my best advice is to name what is bothering you about your job/EM, see if you can work to minimize that pain, then decide if the pros outweight the cons.