mayouches said:
So here I stand, wondering.. would I ever be able to do it?! Would I ever be able to nurture my children well and be there and hear them say their first words? Would I be a wonderful, supporting wife to her husband? Would I be an awesome daughter to my parents? Can I do all of the above and still be in a highly competitive speciality? The questions are endless and the worries that follow it, are worse.
Cultural differences aside, these are questions that lots of women in our generation are asking - and not liking the answers... My opinion is that the answer is yes, but not all at the same time. There just aren't enough hours in the day. Many, many people simultaneously have careeres, marriages that don't end, and kids who stay out of prison. However, they sometimes do miss those precious first words and those leisurely dinners with their spouses, and they also may miss out on a great opportunity at work because they have to go to their daughter's piano recital.
An idea that is getting a lot of buzz in the business world is flex-careers. The idea is that our lives have phases, and your career should be able to accommodate those changes. When you have kids, you can take a few years off. Then, when your kids start school, you can take on some contracting or part-time work to keep your skills up to date. Once they're grown, you're ready to get back on the career ladder, but you don't have to start at the bottom anymore. The bad news - most companies (and probably most hospitals) aren't on board with this yet. If you liked the idea, you could probably find a way to make it work, but you'd probably have to fight for it.
I wish you the best - it can't be easy being a woman in medical school. You're right, people don't have the same kinds of expectations of husbands as they do wives. One thing you might consider is marrying a man who would be willing to be a stay-at-home-dad. Aside from the breastfeeding, they can do pretty much anything you could do as a stay-at-home-mom, and you would know that your children were well taken care of during the day.