I am not the kind of person who joins forums. So the fact I am doing it right now is because I am really desperate and Im only looking for honesty no matter how harsh it might sound to my ears, as at this point, I guess nothing could go worse than how it already is for me.
I made the worst decision Ive ever made in my entire life yesterday.. I studied for step 2 ck for around 4 months, almost 5.. I didnt do so good on step1 (229) so I was really aiming to score as high as possible on step 2.
I couldnt sleep at all the night before the exam, even tho i took a short acting benzo (prescribed) and 2 melatonins and got anxious after seeing they were not having any effect on me, and instead cried all night (lot of things going on in my life right now).. I finally said to myself at 5 am in the morning that i was going to cancel it.. Once I said this to myself, i felt asleep. I woke up at 7 am and decided to go take it... On my my way there, I was feeling tired but got advice from ppl that I could do it and so on...
I was already tired and started to freak out when I noticed questions were longer than ever, longer than uworld and kaplan q bank all together... Sleep deprivation+ anxiety that not even a benzo could get rid of + new crazy step 2 ck format = the recipe for disaster obviously.
I couldn't finish most blocks... Each was 44-47 qs long... Im sure I finished just one block completely and most prob it was the 44 q one. I have poor recall on the type of questions and my answers as I was obviously too stressed after seeing I couldnt think properly and that I wasnt being able to manage time. I thought about canceling but I didn't bc i was afraid on a how an incomplete attempt would look on my transcript. Now I regret I didn't cancel it.. I was praying hard all the way through it.. but I dont know if my prayings were reaching God or if they are going to have any effect at all as I didn't complete most blocks. I think I missed about 35-40 qs in total + the ones I had wrong. The last block was only 28qs long and even that took me the whole hour, i was feeling like my head was about to explode by that point already.. To conclude I either failed or score very low and I can't tell what is worse... I basically want to stop living right now.
Is my journey over? bc on top of this nightmare, I am an IMG
I made the worst decision Ive ever made in my entire life yesterday.. I studied for step 2 ck for around 4 months, almost 5.. I didnt do so good on step1 (229) so I was really aiming to score as high as possible on step 2.
I couldnt sleep at all the night before the exam, even tho i took a short acting benzo (prescribed) and 2 melatonins and got anxious after seeing they were not having any effect on me, and instead cried all night (lot of things going on in my life right now).. I finally said to myself at 5 am in the morning that i was going to cancel it.. Once I said this to myself, i felt asleep. I woke up at 7 am and decided to go take it... On my my way there, I was feeling tired but got advice from ppl that I could do it and so on...
I was already tired and started to freak out when I noticed questions were longer than ever, longer than uworld and kaplan q bank all together... Sleep deprivation+ anxiety that not even a benzo could get rid of + new crazy step 2 ck format = the recipe for disaster obviously.
I couldn't finish most blocks... Each was 44-47 qs long... Im sure I finished just one block completely and most prob it was the 44 q one. I have poor recall on the type of questions and my answers as I was obviously too stressed after seeing I couldnt think properly and that I wasnt being able to manage time. I thought about canceling but I didn't bc i was afraid on a how an incomplete attempt would look on my transcript. Now I regret I didn't cancel it.. I was praying hard all the way through it.. but I dont know if my prayings were reaching God or if they are going to have any effect at all as I didn't complete most blocks. I think I missed about 35-40 qs in total + the ones I had wrong. The last block was only 28qs long and even that took me the whole hour, i was feeling like my head was about to explode by that point already.. To conclude I either failed or score very low and I can't tell what is worse... I basically want to stop living right now.
Is my journey over? bc on top of this nightmare, I am an IMG