I'm ecstatic that I got in, but I've never dealt with change well, and this is a big one. I've loved college, done so many amazing things, and met so many amazing people, that I'm sad and terrified to see it all end. I didn't experience this feeling out of HS, as it was a nightmare and I couldn't wait to get out, so these feelings are new to me. Plus, I'm not anyone's idea of a social butterfly–I have friends in college because of marching band and because my university has so many clubs and opportunities that you have to try to NOT meet someone you get along with. I know medical school is a lot different–most people live in apartments on their own/with a roommate/with a SO, there are fewer opportunities for involvement, the workload is much harder, so there's less free time for hanging out and doing nothing on some random night. Basically, I'm terrified out of my mind that I won't make any friends and I'll feel lonely.
My long distance, long term boyfriend is moving in with me when I start med school, wherever I go. I know this will be great, and it will mitigate loneliness incurred from chronic shyness, but I'm afraid that our relationship will be strained or that he'll resent me for having to study all the time. I'm also afraid that living with him will be part of the problem as far as not finding friends is concerned–he wants and encourages me to have friends outside the relationship, but if it's a choice of hanging out with and getting to know some classmates after school and going home to him, I'm afraid I'll choose the easy option and go home to him most if not all of the time, because it's more comfortable and because I would already feel bad about being away for most of the time.
But it's totally gonna be great guys! 😛 (I don't mean to be pessimistic, I think rationally it will be fine, I just have all these worries and I haven't gotten to dump them anywhere and they've just been sitting in my head yay anxiety)