Thank you to the few positive, thoughtful responses/advice. And just to claify, when I wrote "power," I phrased it in the form of "influence." My perception of medicine, which is the reality for many, is that is a profession of hierachy that tolerates and even sometimes encourages abuse and mindless conformity. And, as far as I'm concerned, residency is just another period of this, just with higher stakes. I constantly read posts, specifically topics like "resident termination." I don't know about other people, but I'm the type of person that refuses to let my destiny be determined by a vindictive physician, nurse, PD, whatever. I feel like medicine is filled with tons of "yes men," "cynics," and frank "cowards." Never in my life, have I experienced so any people turn a blind eye to mistreatment of their peers. It's quite disturbing. But, I believe this is ultimately the case because, few people in medicine actually have power and influence. I came into medicine because I wanted to help people, and I wanted a respectable career. In almost 4 years of med school, I have first hand witnessed a severely broken system, and tons of profesionals not very much interested in "helping people." And, I have been indoctrinated into a profession that seriously lacks professionalism and respect for its students and residents. As such, I'm actively trying to find a place in medicine where I can still make a decent living, but more importantly, where I can have more influence, thus power. The powers that be have no desire to fix medicine, and the AMA is not our advocate, willing to sell docs up the river at the drop of a hat. I refuse to further risk control over my life, my career and my happiness for a career in clinical medicine. "I am the captain of my ship. I am the master of my fate."
PS- To GoodmanBrown, you pray to God that you don't work with someone like me now. Don't worry, I'm abslutely sure you'll get your prayers answered. Cause for every person like me in medicine, someone who actually cares about "the little guy", there are 10 nurses/residents/attendings that will relish in abusing you and making your life a living hell. People "like me" are vastly outnumbered. Cheers!