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This is a story that has endless details and each chapter is "unheard" of and more significant than you have ever heard (definitely more than I have seen on studoc in 10 years).
The overall story is 3 years allopathic US medical school, a temporary withdrawal from the school for personal reasons and advised by admin, which became extended beyond the med school's max 2 semester limit.. and due to the valid circumstances, this was saved from being a logistical dismissal, 👍 instead it became a full "permanent" withdrawal from that med school (granted by the Dean along with a letter of reference and no negative stains👍). The general advice was taken to reapply later-- elsewhere-- and after 6 months I redid an entire AMCAS as a "transfer" student. 😎 Did not get in anywhere, got 2 interviews, apparently 1 was a fluke where they hadn't realized I was a 4th yr Transfer (because my prior med school transcripts submitted were all "Pass/Fail" courses and vaguely the explanation I heard was that they never showed up in the specific course curriculum? Irrelevant--). Did a backup plan with Carribbeans just to finish the MD. 😕 (Had only 9 months electives left to go). Stupid Money-hungry businesses aka "Caribbean med schools" all the credible big ones wanted me to start back on the island from the last pre-clinical semester! I wasn't going to any island when I had finished all my core clinicals AND step 1 and CS. The 2 caribs that accepted all my coursework and could start me with my US clinical MS4 electives were the one I ended up attending (tiny no-name almost a one-man show, school was based in a south American country) and a crooked one (with the Dean calling me to insist I committed before giving me "acceptance" hah! Asked him one Q only- can I do residency in Cali? He lied and said I can do it anywhere I want if I make a case coming from 3/4 lcme USA-school. Turns out this school was blacklisted from cali ten years ago). The small one wasn't whitelisted nor blacklisted with Cali Med Board so I jumped in just to make sure I "graduated". I had 3 families full of people behind me rooting me on because given what I had lived through it was important success that I finished that MD. Soon as I was enrolled I also could re-apply for step 2 (I was scheduled to take the exam at the time of my original withdrawal as a US med student..it was forfeited, and that is the least bad thing that's happened -barely even mentionable at this time)
Bottom line is that within a year of graduating, I explored all the options and it looks like it is impossible to "match". This is because the unheard-of Offshore school for my 4th year is barely credible AND doesn't cooperate well with ECFMG (the international med school version of AAMC. A whole new world I learned about with 9 months to go!)
I've now applied through ERAS 3 rounds. I am absolutely certain by now that I have to route some other path. I am certain because, by now 3 years post-graduating I did not get into a spot even when I had PD's "making" spots for me (let's say I had a spouse in a competitive residency and a network of GME helpers.) I did not get in even when I applied to scramble/soap prelim general surgery (easiest least competitive "junk" spots in USA). The second round and third round have led to pseudo-divorce and now massive OOS tuition in default from originally starting US med school almost 8 yrs ago. The absence of at least an internship residency year, is agreed by all to be ruining my life. (You cannot apply for deferment unless you're in Residency or enrolled full-time in a school that the Federal programs have listed, and I learned this by being denied for the usually-easily-qualified deferment requests I made during enrollment one at the tiny unknown carib I was in for 4th year). It is moreso a problem with that school and their ECFMG relationship. It is causing me to not get "ECFMG-certified" (means ECFMG confirmed you've graduated from a med school curriculum and all the Usmle except 3. It is the usual route img's take.)
and therefore no matter WHAT residency spot I do get, I can't "take" the spot without that official credential. Literally have heard PD's call back or page back to my "helpful contacts"
Saying "her ECFMG is non-valid. Have her fix it quickly before we have to fill this ___ spot."
(I realize this is almost illegal for pd's to communicate now but that's not the focus of this summary tale)
The original withdrawal & delayed return was due to a tragedy followed by another after another-- causing (truly one-in-a-million!) However, it will remain for the courtrooms and movie/book deal$
- because I really just need to ask a logistical question and have it answered.
The Question is:
HOW CAN I REAPPLY TO RE-DO ALL OF MEDICAL SCHOOL AFTER EITHER:
3 years of allopathic medical school and withdrawal,
Or
4 years of non-recognized tiny unknown foreign "carib" med school and an MD degree granted by them?
(This 2nd line is possible to substitute because they ended up transferring all my credits onto their own Transcript which ends with an Md diploma.)
I will conclude by stating that I am willing to retake the MCAT and I'm sure I will rock it since I was spending the past couple of years making money as a pre-med sciences tutor.
However, I am a bright "excellent" clinician and did well in med school and attended a top undergrad, etc.
I have lost everything sacred to me during the past few years of commitment to MD (lifetime love/spouse, the sanity of my family, my credit score, my pride). I am 31 now and living with.grad students in a house that is just like the one I used to OWN.
I WILL RE-DO 4 YEARS OF MEDICAL SCHOOL. I would really not mind that at all. I have spent 4 years already since starting at the Carib school, I should have just re-applied scratch instead of a transfer on that AMcAS (obviously hindsight is amazing splendid super-wisdom. Lol)
This is really a *technical* questioon, despite it sounding like an emotionally charged determination. Please do not reply with advice or deterrent or feedback. Nor sympathy. I appreciate your intentions but it is inappropriate to the answer I am asking.
It is a technicality about how to "erase" the 9 months of useless 4th year and degree, or even erase the 3 yrs of medical school done in the past. I think somehow I can use that as "graduate school credits" since it didn't lead to a degree, yet I cannot keep my prior mcat/usmle from coming up on AMCAS if I apply as a "pre-med" from the start.
Thank you to all who can use the superfluous personalized narrative above, to give me concrete and objective, directed responses. YOU are the only true "doctors," because that will be your exact actual job in real-life patient care. You're not journalists, life coaches, psychologists, or consultants. (Those persons have actually run through this issue with me at some point in time. They all ended up with no solution but personal styles differed in how frustrated they got or frustrating they made it for me before they could just admit/accept being helpless. As a repeat "survivor" I expect this pattern. People who care, cannot deliver "zero" useful result and feel good about it. People always have diffrent coping skills and the most insecure will reflect their own struggle to "need to be helpful" back onto YOU with heavy criticism or denial/deterrent, even harsher. It took my own parents years to be able to say "I don't know how to help. I can't. Tell me how or what I can do. I don't know how to remove your pain/injustice/dilemma/harm/problem." If you broaden your scope you will quickly see why having tragedies or complex problems befall you --can cause you to lose multitudes of people closest to you who cared about you so much. Distance and denial are the last resorts of the human psyche. Eventually, it is where we go when we cannot watch the unfair or traumatic and remain bound and helpless and powerless to change it. The people who cared about you the most, and your biggest supporters, they will all fall the HARDEST. If you are someone who truly KNOWS the grave level of experience I am mentioning, PLEASE MESSAGE ME. It is rare to find you. I would like to keep you in my network as I climb uphill and finally reach the one thing I deserved all along, my medical license and residency. Even if it takes re-doing the MCAT, haha. I laugh because that was a struggle 10 years ago and it seemed like a huge deal back then. After med school I've learned "how" to study, and perform even under physical somatic challenges like thirst and fatigue. No offense to pre-meds as I was one too, but for a veteran those are the baby steps. I'm happy to do it all over. I'm not happy to walk away from half of my life spent becoming a doctor, and say I deserved not to really ever get done (step 3 and 1 year of residency = licensure = "done"). That is not ok. Considering the half mill $ debt impact and waste of my childbearing years, that is not ok 🙂
So kudos to all you smart cookies who give me discrete answers to "the question" above! We are a bunch of the smartest people I ever met. Judges and lawyers and consultants and therapists have all awarded me that comment during displays of superior aptitude in doing THEIR job better than they could 🙂 I pass it on to the collective body of Medical education trainees, from MCAT to License. (clinical practice brings its own downfall to that accelerated genius, with the arrival of practicality and liability and business/financial and personal career/life brain drains. But the era of med ed is when we are all free from those burdens & brain muscles exercising like training in power marathons for Olympic cerebral medals!) no other time in any other field matches the course of med ed training.
And, the smartest cookies who are the star clinicians will display professionalism by not telling me the obvious downers, "wow that sucks" or, "it is close to impossible.." or "I can't imagine what that's like." . Not appropriate, and not the first to tell me.
I expect that, as student- to-be.. doctors, Dr. Job is bare minimum sympathy expression just enough above the "robotic numb" or callous level. Sometimes it doesn't need to be expressed separately, it comes across in the sincerity of your SOLUTIONS (IE treatment modalities). It isn't necessary to remind the rock-bottom person, again, how bad or awful or critical or life-changing their problem is. Unless it is something you have figured out how to cure!
As Drs, your "analysis" isn't the final product you deliver, it is the just the first step you keep to yourself. Meanwhile you non-judgementally SOLVE the algorithm, down to the core at a binary level of prescribing a tangible X or Y that treats it the most efficiently.
Trust me, I am in a position to judge that. I read prospective med school applications for yearrrrrs as a MS1,2,3. I taught hundreds of pre-meds how to study and how to be med students and how to get in.. And during my uphill climb to finish my 9 months of MD (or stay in "know" during the abysmal months and years in between formal enrollments) I've amassed enough clinical credits and personal "clinical" work at a residents' level, to know the line I've surpassed from each of the prior era.
That being said, I beg you. Please, please please. Please solve this riddlesome question for me. Everybody agrees I deserve a basic doctor license. Nobody else has this much dedication, appropriate knowledge, and credible experience at this level of med-ed. Deans, Pd's and mentors all cite the injustice but there must be a solution (that is re-doing medical school. 4 yrs is nothing at this point to me, really. Or re-doing the 4th year again, I'm even wondering about re-applying to "big" carib schools but I think that isn't possible if you have ever gotten an MD. American schools hardly consider my 4th yr "alma mater" as a "real" MD but my 4th year clinicals were done at the same "legitimate" hospitals I had always intended to be doing electives at, before withdrawal. I know for a fact that at least 4 PD's considered my entire CV to be fully worthy of their open spot. And held it for me (but most of those occurred due to personal ties and notoriety about my struggle. It is interesting when you reach the level of post-grad to have your past classmates & Peers all become residents, and involve you in their daily lives and decisions just as before.
It is STRANGELY like you are a "VIP" residency applicant, however, when those peers have gone on to become attendings (in primary care) and Fellows or chief residents (in surgical/subspecialties). By then, they are holding out spots for you at their respective institutions before the cycle year even begins. 3 yrs in a row 🙁
To the saint with the stellar suggestion, I know you are out there:
You will be heavily rewarded, by many many people. And you will be tributed AND credited for many years to come. And I will cast you any favor and all the Favoritism of my entire network of Doctor friends, family, peers, deans, PD's, attendings, fellows, etc.
I promise.
(I have written thousands of thank you letters during these years. I was the med student who wrote a thank you card to every resident and staff I worked with. And then during trials and tributlations and near-death and multiple irreplaceable losses of grave severity, I still made it my priority to return tangible gratitude to everyone from stranger to sibling, who extended themselves to my cause. All of those people's efforts will come to fruition with this last "dilemma" answered.
Only you as a group are bright enough to be posed with this. I genuinely believe that because I have seen "us" amaze the rest of humanity with our brain-computers.
Thanks again.
The overall story is 3 years allopathic US medical school, a temporary withdrawal from the school for personal reasons and advised by admin, which became extended beyond the med school's max 2 semester limit.. and due to the valid circumstances, this was saved from being a logistical dismissal, 👍 instead it became a full "permanent" withdrawal from that med school (granted by the Dean along with a letter of reference and no negative stains👍). The general advice was taken to reapply later-- elsewhere-- and after 6 months I redid an entire AMCAS as a "transfer" student. 😎 Did not get in anywhere, got 2 interviews, apparently 1 was a fluke where they hadn't realized I was a 4th yr Transfer (because my prior med school transcripts submitted were all "Pass/Fail" courses and vaguely the explanation I heard was that they never showed up in the specific course curriculum? Irrelevant--). Did a backup plan with Carribbeans just to finish the MD. 😕 (Had only 9 months electives left to go). Stupid Money-hungry businesses aka "Caribbean med schools" all the credible big ones wanted me to start back on the island from the last pre-clinical semester! I wasn't going to any island when I had finished all my core clinicals AND step 1 and CS. The 2 caribs that accepted all my coursework and could start me with my US clinical MS4 electives were the one I ended up attending (tiny no-name almost a one-man show, school was based in a south American country) and a crooked one (with the Dean calling me to insist I committed before giving me "acceptance" hah! Asked him one Q only- can I do residency in Cali? He lied and said I can do it anywhere I want if I make a case coming from 3/4 lcme USA-school. Turns out this school was blacklisted from cali ten years ago). The small one wasn't whitelisted nor blacklisted with Cali Med Board so I jumped in just to make sure I "graduated". I had 3 families full of people behind me rooting me on because given what I had lived through it was important success that I finished that MD. Soon as I was enrolled I also could re-apply for step 2 (I was scheduled to take the exam at the time of my original withdrawal as a US med student..it was forfeited, and that is the least bad thing that's happened -barely even mentionable at this time)
Bottom line is that within a year of graduating, I explored all the options and it looks like it is impossible to "match". This is because the unheard-of Offshore school for my 4th year is barely credible AND doesn't cooperate well with ECFMG (the international med school version of AAMC. A whole new world I learned about with 9 months to go!)
I've now applied through ERAS 3 rounds. I am absolutely certain by now that I have to route some other path. I am certain because, by now 3 years post-graduating I did not get into a spot even when I had PD's "making" spots for me (let's say I had a spouse in a competitive residency and a network of GME helpers.) I did not get in even when I applied to scramble/soap prelim general surgery (easiest least competitive "junk" spots in USA). The second round and third round have led to pseudo-divorce and now massive OOS tuition in default from originally starting US med school almost 8 yrs ago. The absence of at least an internship residency year, is agreed by all to be ruining my life. (You cannot apply for deferment unless you're in Residency or enrolled full-time in a school that the Federal programs have listed, and I learned this by being denied for the usually-easily-qualified deferment requests I made during enrollment one at the tiny unknown carib I was in for 4th year). It is moreso a problem with that school and their ECFMG relationship. It is causing me to not get "ECFMG-certified" (means ECFMG confirmed you've graduated from a med school curriculum and all the Usmle except 3. It is the usual route img's take.)
and therefore no matter WHAT residency spot I do get, I can't "take" the spot without that official credential. Literally have heard PD's call back or page back to my "helpful contacts"
Saying "her ECFMG is non-valid. Have her fix it quickly before we have to fill this ___ spot."
(I realize this is almost illegal for pd's to communicate now but that's not the focus of this summary tale)
The original withdrawal & delayed return was due to a tragedy followed by another after another-- causing (truly one-in-a-million!) However, it will remain for the courtrooms and movie/book deal$
- because I really just need to ask a logistical question and have it answered.
The Question is:
HOW CAN I REAPPLY TO RE-DO ALL OF MEDICAL SCHOOL AFTER EITHER:
3 years of allopathic medical school and withdrawal,
Or
4 years of non-recognized tiny unknown foreign "carib" med school and an MD degree granted by them?
(This 2nd line is possible to substitute because they ended up transferring all my credits onto their own Transcript which ends with an Md diploma.)
I will conclude by stating that I am willing to retake the MCAT and I'm sure I will rock it since I was spending the past couple of years making money as a pre-med sciences tutor.
However, I am a bright "excellent" clinician and did well in med school and attended a top undergrad, etc.
I have lost everything sacred to me during the past few years of commitment to MD (lifetime love/spouse, the sanity of my family, my credit score, my pride). I am 31 now and living with.grad students in a house that is just like the one I used to OWN.
I WILL RE-DO 4 YEARS OF MEDICAL SCHOOL. I would really not mind that at all. I have spent 4 years already since starting at the Carib school, I should have just re-applied scratch instead of a transfer on that AMcAS (obviously hindsight is amazing splendid super-wisdom. Lol)
This is really a *technical* questioon, despite it sounding like an emotionally charged determination. Please do not reply with advice or deterrent or feedback. Nor sympathy. I appreciate your intentions but it is inappropriate to the answer I am asking.
It is a technicality about how to "erase" the 9 months of useless 4th year and degree, or even erase the 3 yrs of medical school done in the past. I think somehow I can use that as "graduate school credits" since it didn't lead to a degree, yet I cannot keep my prior mcat/usmle from coming up on AMCAS if I apply as a "pre-med" from the start.
Thank you to all who can use the superfluous personalized narrative above, to give me concrete and objective, directed responses. YOU are the only true "doctors," because that will be your exact actual job in real-life patient care. You're not journalists, life coaches, psychologists, or consultants. (Those persons have actually run through this issue with me at some point in time. They all ended up with no solution but personal styles differed in how frustrated they got or frustrating they made it for me before they could just admit/accept being helpless. As a repeat "survivor" I expect this pattern. People who care, cannot deliver "zero" useful result and feel good about it. People always have diffrent coping skills and the most insecure will reflect their own struggle to "need to be helpful" back onto YOU with heavy criticism or denial/deterrent, even harsher. It took my own parents years to be able to say "I don't know how to help. I can't. Tell me how or what I can do. I don't know how to remove your pain/injustice/dilemma/harm/problem." If you broaden your scope you will quickly see why having tragedies or complex problems befall you --can cause you to lose multitudes of people closest to you who cared about you so much. Distance and denial are the last resorts of the human psyche. Eventually, it is where we go when we cannot watch the unfair or traumatic and remain bound and helpless and powerless to change it. The people who cared about you the most, and your biggest supporters, they will all fall the HARDEST. If you are someone who truly KNOWS the grave level of experience I am mentioning, PLEASE MESSAGE ME. It is rare to find you. I would like to keep you in my network as I climb uphill and finally reach the one thing I deserved all along, my medical license and residency. Even if it takes re-doing the MCAT, haha. I laugh because that was a struggle 10 years ago and it seemed like a huge deal back then. After med school I've learned "how" to study, and perform even under physical somatic challenges like thirst and fatigue. No offense to pre-meds as I was one too, but for a veteran those are the baby steps. I'm happy to do it all over. I'm not happy to walk away from half of my life spent becoming a doctor, and say I deserved not to really ever get done (step 3 and 1 year of residency = licensure = "done"). That is not ok. Considering the half mill $ debt impact and waste of my childbearing years, that is not ok 🙂
So kudos to all you smart cookies who give me discrete answers to "the question" above! We are a bunch of the smartest people I ever met. Judges and lawyers and consultants and therapists have all awarded me that comment during displays of superior aptitude in doing THEIR job better than they could 🙂 I pass it on to the collective body of Medical education trainees, from MCAT to License. (clinical practice brings its own downfall to that accelerated genius, with the arrival of practicality and liability and business/financial and personal career/life brain drains. But the era of med ed is when we are all free from those burdens & brain muscles exercising like training in power marathons for Olympic cerebral medals!) no other time in any other field matches the course of med ed training.
And, the smartest cookies who are the star clinicians will display professionalism by not telling me the obvious downers, "wow that sucks" or, "it is close to impossible.." or "I can't imagine what that's like." . Not appropriate, and not the first to tell me.
I expect that, as student- to-be.. doctors, Dr. Job is bare minimum sympathy expression just enough above the "robotic numb" or callous level. Sometimes it doesn't need to be expressed separately, it comes across in the sincerity of your SOLUTIONS (IE treatment modalities). It isn't necessary to remind the rock-bottom person, again, how bad or awful or critical or life-changing their problem is. Unless it is something you have figured out how to cure!
As Drs, your "analysis" isn't the final product you deliver, it is the just the first step you keep to yourself. Meanwhile you non-judgementally SOLVE the algorithm, down to the core at a binary level of prescribing a tangible X or Y that treats it the most efficiently.
Trust me, I am in a position to judge that. I read prospective med school applications for yearrrrrs as a MS1,2,3. I taught hundreds of pre-meds how to study and how to be med students and how to get in.. And during my uphill climb to finish my 9 months of MD (or stay in "know" during the abysmal months and years in between formal enrollments) I've amassed enough clinical credits and personal "clinical" work at a residents' level, to know the line I've surpassed from each of the prior era.
That being said, I beg you. Please, please please. Please solve this riddlesome question for me. Everybody agrees I deserve a basic doctor license. Nobody else has this much dedication, appropriate knowledge, and credible experience at this level of med-ed. Deans, Pd's and mentors all cite the injustice but there must be a solution (that is re-doing medical school. 4 yrs is nothing at this point to me, really. Or re-doing the 4th year again, I'm even wondering about re-applying to "big" carib schools but I think that isn't possible if you have ever gotten an MD. American schools hardly consider my 4th yr "alma mater" as a "real" MD but my 4th year clinicals were done at the same "legitimate" hospitals I had always intended to be doing electives at, before withdrawal. I know for a fact that at least 4 PD's considered my entire CV to be fully worthy of their open spot. And held it for me (but most of those occurred due to personal ties and notoriety about my struggle. It is interesting when you reach the level of post-grad to have your past classmates & Peers all become residents, and involve you in their daily lives and decisions just as before.
It is STRANGELY like you are a "VIP" residency applicant, however, when those peers have gone on to become attendings (in primary care) and Fellows or chief residents (in surgical/subspecialties). By then, they are holding out spots for you at their respective institutions before the cycle year even begins. 3 yrs in a row 🙁
To the saint with the stellar suggestion, I know you are out there:
You will be heavily rewarded, by many many people. And you will be tributed AND credited for many years to come. And I will cast you any favor and all the Favoritism of my entire network of Doctor friends, family, peers, deans, PD's, attendings, fellows, etc.
I promise.
(I have written thousands of thank you letters during these years. I was the med student who wrote a thank you card to every resident and staff I worked with. And then during trials and tributlations and near-death and multiple irreplaceable losses of grave severity, I still made it my priority to return tangible gratitude to everyone from stranger to sibling, who extended themselves to my cause. All of those people's efforts will come to fruition with this last "dilemma" answered.
Only you as a group are bright enough to be posed with this. I genuinely believe that because I have seen "us" amaze the rest of humanity with our brain-computers.
Thanks again.