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I'm not sure if this is the correct place to ask, but I feel I need help or advice in life and am unsure where to turn.
I turn 28 in September and feel I've accomplished all of my goals and desires in life already and continuing forward seems rather pointless. Not saying I'm suicidal, but I have the feeling of ennui. To me it just seems without a goal or target to strive for I'm just going day by day until I expire one day.
My big goals were to meet someone I love, have a dog I love, own my own house and car, be debt free, be comfortable on money. I now own a 3bed2bath house, 3 cars 2 motorcycles all paid off, 800+ credit score, investment accounts set up for retirement, 15k running balance in my checking and 40k in savings, debt free except my mortgage payment. I have 2 renters who offset my mortgage payment and I live comfortably off 1000-1200 a month all in.
I've traveled anywhere I've wanted, gone on cruises, bungee jumped, scuba dive, jet ski, flown planes, ATV, custom built race cars and did street racing, shot guns, stole items from stores when I was a kid, played around with pyrotechnics, gambled, been to a swinger party, hooked up with a stripper, did charity events like feeding the homeless and elderly care, interned in a hospital, went through the confirmation program with the church and was part of a few bible study groups, power lifted to 2.5x body weight for primary lifts, interned as a health and wellness coach at a fitness institute. Basically as far as I can tell I've tried most of what life has to offer from good to bad and am unsure what is left for me to do or see that I haven't already or care enough to pursue.
I have my bachelor's degree in health science with all the coursework completed for med school, ase certified as a mechanic in advanced engine repair and electrical diagnostics as well as steering and suspension diagnostics, CPR/AED certified, driving instructor endorsed in California, ran my own computer business doing custom builds and troubleshooting, volunteered in non profit organizations, in progress real estate license/appraisal license/notary license/pilot license/comptia a+ certification.
In August of 2017 my coworker harrassed me to the point I have clinical diagnosed PTSD as him as a trigger. I went through the workers comp process from Aug till May 2018 resulting in a denial unless appeals judge can overrule and favor in my opinion. As a result I lost my job and am now looking of what to do with my life. No job draws my interests and financially I spend so little and can make money from other sources I most likely don't need a real job for income.
It leaves me with a question every day of what should I do with my life? It's always been a constant flow of school or other prospects to earn enough to get my goals of my own house and a happy family. Now I've achieved those goals I don't have the answer of what to do next with my life. I am not greedy and pretty reserved, so a bigger house or more fancy cars is meh. I appreciate charity and all it entails, but doesn't drive me to help others to that extent. I don't care to make a name for myself in the world or any big impacts. My family is all healthy and happy so any impacts I could make inwards aren't of enough impact to be a goal or motivation for me.
I worked hard for what I have now and know I am better off than most. It is really an odd feeling of ennui, being content and complacent in life having accomplished and achieved all I've wanted to do. Again, I am not suicidal, but what is left for me to do in life? I guess this post is a call of help for goals or motivation anyone reading it has. I don't feel many people will be able to relate to me fully who read this and I don't in any way attempt to brag or show off. I ask in the most humble of ways I know, what's next?
I turn 28 in September and feel I've accomplished all of my goals and desires in life already and continuing forward seems rather pointless. Not saying I'm suicidal, but I have the feeling of ennui. To me it just seems without a goal or target to strive for I'm just going day by day until I expire one day.
My big goals were to meet someone I love, have a dog I love, own my own house and car, be debt free, be comfortable on money. I now own a 3bed2bath house, 3 cars 2 motorcycles all paid off, 800+ credit score, investment accounts set up for retirement, 15k running balance in my checking and 40k in savings, debt free except my mortgage payment. I have 2 renters who offset my mortgage payment and I live comfortably off 1000-1200 a month all in.
I've traveled anywhere I've wanted, gone on cruises, bungee jumped, scuba dive, jet ski, flown planes, ATV, custom built race cars and did street racing, shot guns, stole items from stores when I was a kid, played around with pyrotechnics, gambled, been to a swinger party, hooked up with a stripper, did charity events like feeding the homeless and elderly care, interned in a hospital, went through the confirmation program with the church and was part of a few bible study groups, power lifted to 2.5x body weight for primary lifts, interned as a health and wellness coach at a fitness institute. Basically as far as I can tell I've tried most of what life has to offer from good to bad and am unsure what is left for me to do or see that I haven't already or care enough to pursue.
I have my bachelor's degree in health science with all the coursework completed for med school, ase certified as a mechanic in advanced engine repair and electrical diagnostics as well as steering and suspension diagnostics, CPR/AED certified, driving instructor endorsed in California, ran my own computer business doing custom builds and troubleshooting, volunteered in non profit organizations, in progress real estate license/appraisal license/notary license/pilot license/comptia a+ certification.
In August of 2017 my coworker harrassed me to the point I have clinical diagnosed PTSD as him as a trigger. I went through the workers comp process from Aug till May 2018 resulting in a denial unless appeals judge can overrule and favor in my opinion. As a result I lost my job and am now looking of what to do with my life. No job draws my interests and financially I spend so little and can make money from other sources I most likely don't need a real job for income.
It leaves me with a question every day of what should I do with my life? It's always been a constant flow of school or other prospects to earn enough to get my goals of my own house and a happy family. Now I've achieved those goals I don't have the answer of what to do next with my life. I am not greedy and pretty reserved, so a bigger house or more fancy cars is meh. I appreciate charity and all it entails, but doesn't drive me to help others to that extent. I don't care to make a name for myself in the world or any big impacts. My family is all healthy and happy so any impacts I could make inwards aren't of enough impact to be a goal or motivation for me.
I worked hard for what I have now and know I am better off than most. It is really an odd feeling of ennui, being content and complacent in life having accomplished and achieved all I've wanted to do. Again, I am not suicidal, but what is left for me to do in life? I guess this post is a call of help for goals or motivation anyone reading it has. I don't feel many people will be able to relate to me fully who read this and I don't in any way attempt to brag or show off. I ask in the most humble of ways I know, what's next?