The fall before medical school on my interview -- they take us to the anatomy lab -- this is my first med school interview and I'm nervous as heck about seeing, much less working on a dead body. We go into the lab and I'm at the back of the crowd trying to look interested/act like I'm able to see without really seeing anything. Figured passing out/getting weirded out on an interview was a definite no-no --- I think I saw all of a bisected vertebral segment.....
Fall of med school, having just survived the Biochem/Cell Biology course, we're now in musculoskeletal -- the course director used to make us watch this video produced by UTMB about people who donated their bodies to science. The department would also have family members of the cadaveric specimens come in and tell us a little about their family members that we were about to dissect in an effort to emphasize the incredible experience we were about to have and not to take it lightly.
That first dissection was over the upper back -- my tank mates went out to get our gloves and I opened the tank and raised the specimen up. I had my gloves so I put my hand on the specimen's back and breathed a quick prayer, asking them to forgive me for what I was about to do to them.....Did I know they had gone on to their just rewards? Yes, but this was more for me than anything else. Didn't pass out on that day or any other.
By thanksgiving of my first year of medical school, while taking Neuro, I'm standing at the head of the tank with a tree saw in my hand, holding the left side of the head, 2 of my tankmates are holding the shoulders and the other tankmate is reading the procedure --- and I'm bisecting the skull with a tree saw down to the sternal notch to get an appreciation of the medial aspect of the head/neck anatomy. Once we had the head/neck bisected and found the structures we needed for that day, we all washed our hands, booked down for lunch and got ready for an afternoon class.
You get used to it. They train/expose you in stages, you'll be fine --- soon you'll look at a kid who's arm was torn up by Dad's circular saw in a construction accident and it won't be any big deal, you just move quickly with what has to be done to keep the patient hemodynamically stable until the cavalry arrives.
By my PGY2 year, I wasn't phased by things like rectal abscesses being lanced in the exam space in the ER, draining a peritonsillar abscess in the trauma bay, suturing up an attempted suicide who slashed bilateral wrists, cutting the clothing off an attempted suicide who tried to burn themselves to death, the patient who was stabbed in the head at church, the AKA we did for tertiary hypoparathyroidism, the toe amputation for DM, etc.
You get used to it.
HOWEVER -- DO NOT discuss that stuff around the dinner table with your family or with extended family during the holidays --- don't ask me how I know....to this day, my wife will not eat green beans if I'm talking anything medical and sometimes I think my children will ask how my day was just to see if any stories will happen that will gross Mom out....word to the wise....