So, its been a month since I matched at my #12 choice...needless to say I have been pretty down in the dumps since it happened. I know things could be worse, I know there are people without positions right now, who had to scramble successfully or unsuccessfully, but I still just can't shake this feeling that I got punched in the gut and am still trying to catch some air.
I have been trying to make the best of this situation: I liked the program I matched at, and going into match day I knew I would be happy to train there. That said, I did not see it coming at all...Maybe I got cocky, because I was getting interviews at top Academic centers, but I still haven't come to terms with the fact that I was shot down by 11 programs (including my home program) and matched at a community program, pretty much limiting my options for top fellowships and an academic career. I keep just obsessing over every interview at these programs, and thinking what I did wrong....I didn't think I was a rock star on interviews, but I thought I was articulate and likable enough to back up what they saw on paper...
But the biggest problem is everybody that is surrounding me. I'm in a college town, so pretty much my only friends are med students. And still all they ever #$%ing talk about is the interview trail and how well everyone in our class did in the match (It seems like I am the only person who didn't match at my top 4). Every time I accept the position I am in, I get knocked down a peg...constantly getting backhanded compliments after they hear where I matched: "Oh....well, its OK, you'll still be fine." Or overhearing people make fun of the program I matched at, not realize I am right frickin next to them... I just worked so hard the past 4 years, and where you train is pretty much the only thing you have to show for all your hard work...It is pretty painful to see everybody else get what they wanted.
I know I'm being irrational, and I probably felt too entitled after getting the undergrad and med school of my choice...maybe it will be a good thing to be put back "down to earth." I guess I'm just venting, hoping to hear from someone who was in a similar position that things worked out...or to hear any tips for how I can get over being so down about this crap.
I have been trying to make the best of this situation: I liked the program I matched at, and going into match day I knew I would be happy to train there. That said, I did not see it coming at all...Maybe I got cocky, because I was getting interviews at top Academic centers, but I still haven't come to terms with the fact that I was shot down by 11 programs (including my home program) and matched at a community program, pretty much limiting my options for top fellowships and an academic career. I keep just obsessing over every interview at these programs, and thinking what I did wrong....I didn't think I was a rock star on interviews, but I thought I was articulate and likable enough to back up what they saw on paper...
But the biggest problem is everybody that is surrounding me. I'm in a college town, so pretty much my only friends are med students. And still all they ever #$%ing talk about is the interview trail and how well everyone in our class did in the match (It seems like I am the only person who didn't match at my top 4). Every time I accept the position I am in, I get knocked down a peg...constantly getting backhanded compliments after they hear where I matched: "Oh....well, its OK, you'll still be fine." Or overhearing people make fun of the program I matched at, not realize I am right frickin next to them... I just worked so hard the past 4 years, and where you train is pretty much the only thing you have to show for all your hard work...It is pretty painful to see everybody else get what they wanted.
I know I'm being irrational, and I probably felt too entitled after getting the undergrad and med school of my choice...maybe it will be a good thing to be put back "down to earth." I guess I'm just venting, hoping to hear from someone who was in a similar position that things worked out...or to hear any tips for how I can get over being so down about this crap.
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