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[lockness]

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I've accepted the fact that I'm never going to amount to anything, especially something I want to be. The entire world is against me and they want me to fail so badly. They won and it's all over now. I don't know what I'm going to do. I am giving up and it is over. Everyone else out competed me and they won. Everything is setup for me to fail. I'm exhausted. I want to be away. Nothing is for me and I stopped taking Zoloft by accident for a couple nights and just took it now so maybe that's why this mood swing is happening. I give up. I'm not going to make it to the end of high-school. I just make people's lives worse. I don't even want taht much but they want me to fail so bad and theyre persistent iwth it and i tried and failed. I get no respect from anyone. im probably gonna be banned after this post too.

I hear stories of people doing poorly in high school but then doing great things in medicine. I don't see how it's possible. I feel like my grades will always be poor and there's nothing I can do about it.

I don't even want to enjoy life. periods of narcissism and then this is bizarre.

Grades:

quarter one of 9th grade
Science - A+
Algebra 1 - B+
PE - A-
English - B-
World Civ - B+
Italian 1 - B+

quarter two (not over yet)
Science - A
Algebra 1 - A
PE - A-
English - B+
World Civ - B
Italian - C

Now it's going to be a D because I have a quiz tomrorow that i KNOW NOTHING on. I'm os screwed. I want to give up but i cant give upb ecause i wont let myself.

I can't study because i have nothing to study because I' m a dumb american that only knows one language

I'm in Algebra 1 as a freshman. That's pathetic. I'm willing to bet less than 20% of everyone who ever accomplished something was in Algebra 1 as a freshman in high school. Absolutely pathetic. and now my teachers moved my classes because i dont even remember why but they moved them. I'm not even in any honors classes. I'm mediocre. if i tried in middle school i wouldnt be here. but i thought i would be gone by now in middle schol



I'm never going to be in a medicine, math, or science career. That's all I've ever wanted too. I don't care if I'm the most lonely person in the world. If I can't do that then there's no point in all this. I give up and I'm done.

Gonna go to school tomorrow, fail the italian quiz, do no work, come home and do nothing because im pathetic and thats how im gonna be my entire life and there's absolutely nothing I can do to change it. I'm done. and give up.

 

[lockness]

now im gonna get banned

 

[gyngyn]

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