Hi
First off I want to thank anyone willing to help me and read through the post.
Be forewarned that my situation will be very complicated and the post will be long.
I have always been really interested in becoming a doctor. I majored in biology. However, biology is not my passion. My father forced me to major in biology because he though that it was most related to healthcare (another issue).
Medical school is my true dream.
I first attended a university and got really good grades with an upward trend in grades i.e. getting better in the latter years. Had about a 3.7 GPA but I transferred to another university (considered prestigious) because my dad wanted me to and also because I had the confidence that I would do well.
To my dismay, I found that the new school was very tough. The competition was soo intense. The Grades were waay tougher and I ended with barely a 3.01 average from this school upon graduating. Furthermore, my prehealth advisor at this school was very rude and condescending to me. I am confused, I never offended her or carried my self in any arrogant way. She forced me to retake physiology which killed my grade. She refused to accept the credit transfer despite the professor already signed the agreement. Yeah, thanks for wasting my money, stupid school.
To complicate matters, I feel like I am just not intelligent enough. After graduating, i worked for a year in a lab (didn't like it at all). I quit the next year and took a MCAT prep course and took many courses at my old university and community college and got A's in all of them except for one B. My current GPA is a 3.36 (all schools and courses combined)
However, I just CANNOT do well in the MCAT no matter how hard I try.
I score around 10 BS 9-10PS 6 VR.
I cannot do verbal for life. Many hours of practice passages didn't move my score from a 6 at all. I have never been a good standarized test taker.
Home life is bad too. My mother has cancer and hates her job. When I came home, I blamed my father and argued alot. Now my family don't care about me because they think I complain too much (another issue). My dad thinks its my own falt that I don't study hard enough but I really do. I have spend an entire summer at Barnes and Noble studying Exam Kracker, Princeton Review and attended the course twice. Sometimes I feel soo sick and stuff that I study just pass through my head.
I tried to look for another job but I cannot find one especially in this economy. It turns out my "prestigious" university was worth two s***. i wasted many plane and train tickets.
To keep my options open, I took the PCAT and applied to pharmacy school but have been waitlisted on all of them. I think its also because everyone else had an easier school and higher GPA. The comitee's really don't look too much at the name of the schools. All they care is numbers. My PCAT is OK at 70% so I really think it boils down to GPA.
I am very depressed in life. I Feel soo down, like I am cursed for life. Honestly, I don't care if I died in a car accident.
Is there any suggestion on how I can get into medical school or at least pharmacy. I think thats the only way I can get my life straight.
Sincerely
awwinterfall
