Speaking of self care...
Perhaps this is a good place for me to vent some of my current frustrations/anxieties. I need some advice from either those that have been there, or those that are going through something similar. My problem is that I don't understand how people survive financially through graduate school in unfunded programs, without completely burning themselves out. I am currently in a masters program (4 courses), along with a 20 hour per week practicum and a part time volunteer research assistant position. None of this pays, my program is unfunded/no stipend, and by the time I complete my masters, I'm looking at 50 grand of debt. On top of all of this, I am applying to programs right now, and I work at a bar on weekends. The bar is my only source of income, and it's not much. I use loans to supplement the rest. After last night, I think I need to consider quitting the bar job. It burns me out, I HATE it, I have been doing it for too many years, and I just want to enjoy my weekend. Or at least use my weekend for homework/applications...anything. I don't remember what it was like to have a social life.
If I quit the job, I am relying just on loans, which I would hate to do. I don't know if I have an option though. It's either my sanity, or my financial well being right now. On top of everything, I am really questioning whether or not I would actually go to an unfunded PsyD program after this. Would it just be 5 more years of the same? How do people support themselves in these types of programs? I am SO lost...I am really questioning everything right now.