Some thoughts...

[StringBean]

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I just wanted to take a moment to vent...

I'm so frustrated by the personalities of the people I'm surrounded by all day at the hospital... the miserable ones, mean ones, clicky ones, fake ones, gunners, the ones that pretend your not there even when your speaking directly to them... need I go on? I know it comes with territory, and I know I just have to suck it up and deal... but i really miss spending time with friends and family... people who I'm comfortable with... people who I enjoy spending time with... people who actually care about me and don't play games! Some of these people are just so difficult to work with (I'm sure you all have experienced this!) 😱

All this combined with the feeling that I'm sacrificing wayyyy to much of my life for this is really getting me down and making me think Medicine is not where I'm supposed to be. 🙁

Anyways... off to study for yet another shelf exam. Thanks for listening! 😳

~Bean

Anyone having similar thoughts????

 

[Mumpu]

Wow, sounds like you are at a pretty mean hospital. I'm really sorry to hear about the bad experiences. 🙁 I think the real positives for me always come from patients -- good outcomes, nice people, figuring out challenging diagnoses. This is the reason I went into medicine -- not so I could work alongside some Dr Bigshot. I also found that nothing irritates difficult people more than me ignoring them (be professional, smile-and-nod always works 🙂) and doing a good job with my tasks.

If all else fails, raid the kitchen for apple juice and crackers.

 

[roja]

Oy, I so feel your pain. thankfully, the vast majority of my medical school was NOT like this. I had a great group of rotaters and great experience (and luck) with attendings and residents. Until I did an away rotation at a place in the ED. Everyone was so horrible.. the ancillary staff was beyond anything you can imagine.. the med students were vastly untrustworthy as a huge number of them wanted to go to THAT program (I didn't). The faculty was very good but I didn't know many of them.

I soooooooooo wanted to vamoose out of that month.. I lasted by venting to friends and knowing that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. Just buckle down and realize that you might not find personal satisfaction where you are... It will be over before you know it.. Just try and learn as much as you can and value the free time you have.

 

[Stinger86]

You'll make it through. Just take it one week at a time and before you know it, it'll be fourth year and you can start experiencing things other than primary care. Hell, I'm miserable, and if I can mope my way through anyone can.

12 weeks down, 32 weeks to go!

 

[Hawk22]

I just wanted to take a moment to vent...

I'm so frustrated by the personalities of the people I'm surrounded by all day at the hospital... the miserable ones, mean ones, clicky ones, fake ones, gunners, the ones that pretend your not there even when your speaking directly to them... need I go on? I know it comes with territory, and I know I just have to suck it up and deal... but i really miss spending time with friends and family... people who I'm comfortable with... people who I enjoy spending time with... people who actually care about me and don't play games! Some of these people are just so difficult to work with (I'm sure you all have experienced this!) 😱

All this combined with the feeling that I'm sacrificing wayyyy to much of my life for this is really getting me down and making me think Medicine is not where I'm supposed to be. 🙁

Anyways... off to study for yet another shelf exam. Thanks for listening! 😳

~Bean

Anyone having similar thoughts????

Bean,
Hang in there! I can't tell you how many times I've had the EXACT same thoughts, both in 3rd year and during the first 2 years of medical school. I can't stand not having the time to read about or pursue my other interests (art, travel, language) and feel like medical school is just a giant, life-sucking abyss. This is made MUCH worse by the fact that alot of my friends went to PA school and started the same time I did, so they're out now making $70,000-$90,000 doing what they enjoy, while I'm PAYING big $$$ to WORK long hours with little encouragement. Its nice to know others have similar feelings and that I'm not the only one struggling.

But like others, then I get a good patient or a really good teacher that makes most of this much less painful. I also look back and can't believe how much I've learned in 2 years as well and that makes me feel good. For the monment, I just have to keep my head down and focus on whatever is in front of me. Heck, cathartic posts like this one (and yours) help, if nothing but to get things off your chest. Good luck to you and all others out there who feel like they need a little "primal scream" now and then. 🙂

 

[gatsbyjo]

String...

Its funny, I came on this board to get a little encouragement. I'm feeling really depressed by the personalities in my med school class and Im only an MS1. But, the list of personalities you discussed, that is the exact description of over half the people in my class.

I was on the phone trying to "vent" to my fiance when I realized the whole point--I'm NOT here to make friends or have a social life... I already have an intact social life and a great family.

We are just here to get an education.... somewhere, very far down the road, we actually might have some say in where we work, and whom we work with. All I can say is, whatever your dealing with, at least your over halfway done with school. The light is getting brighter!


Oh, and to the poster about the friends in PA, trust me I am kicking my own ass daily for not looking for a program like that. Why will I be 30 before I make as much as they are making after just a few years of school (and cheaper school, too!).

But oh well, at least, someday, we will all (hopefully) be physicians...

 

[StringBean]

Thanks everyone for your enccouragement! Sometimes just venting on here and getting a few uplifing replies can hold you for a while.

Hugs to all of you! 😍

~Bean