Well after talking to professors and actually looking through my textbooks which arrived yesterday, the material is not that bad, I am pretty confident I can get an A in Bio and Chem. Besides that fact, I understand realism, I know all to well things may not go my way. The way I see it, there are two things to do it. Work hard, and make it happen. I know it sounds very superficial, and bloated, but there is literally nothing in this world that you cannot achieve if your mind is set to it. The pessimism in this thread is astounding to me, possibly because I am very optimistic. I see no point in reflecting on what may go wrong, why look at the negatives. The most successful people I know whether they be MDs, PhDs, MAs etc. all said I am going to do this, and I will achieve it, and they did. Also, I am sorry for being stressed for college, apparently that is a crime. Yes I want to go into highly competitive specialties, I believe I can get into them whichever one I decide to choose if I put my mind to it. How I see myself now matters more then anything in my opinion. How can you set a goal if you do not see yourself preforming in that goal. The higher my goal is, the harder I will have to work. Just because I am "fresh out of puberty" does not make me a day dreamer, or anything like that. It makes me intelligent and goal oriented, it is pretty simple in my opinion. I realize what specialty I want to do may change, but I have pretty much gotten over my nerves once I looked through the textbooks. If you have a goal, there is nothing in your way from achieving it besides hopping every obstacle. I have had people in my past try to tear me down again and again(I am not saying you all are, I am just trying to show a point), I had teachers and guidance counselors call me an idiot, and that I would never get into college, and yet I graduated with a 4.0, honors in every subject, I was a national merit semifinalist and I proved them wrong. I simply believe I can acheive whatever I put my mind to, and once again, I do understand the principle that I may not go into ESN or ISN as much as I want to. Considering I am already signed up to do research in ophtho and radiology and shadowing, I am already on my way lol.