daffodildog
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To get straight to the point: I wanted to be a surgeon. Statistically I should have matched. I did the sub-Is, had the letters, had the interviews, somehow I fell through the cracks. I did not match. This broke my heart. (My board scores were on the low end of surgery applicants, so I think this played a big part.) But after seeing prelims on the interview trail and how desperate they seemed, I promised myself I would not go that route. I am 30 years old, I did not want to spend a year of life for the small chance that I would actually match next year. So I SOAPed family medicine. I like preventative medicine, I am passionate about it. So I thought I could be happy with this course. Now I am struggling. And grieving that I will not be able to work in the OR. I find myself about to start a residency that actually don't know much about and not sure I want to do it. I am posting on this thread because I WANT to be excited about family medicine. Any advice about the directions a family medicine doctor can go, or in a broader sense, wisdom to help me cope with these circumstances, would be much appreciated.