i thought I was clear, there is no doubt i want to do EM> i have wanted EM for many years and though i havent done a "documented rotation" in EM, i have been sort of doing one behind the scenes. there is no hesitation i want to do EM. However, the big man may say no, we dont want you in EM, so im being realistic. I am applying to IM/FM as a backup, but if i dont get into EM then i HAVE to do one of those. they move from beign my backup to what i have to do for a living. i know it sux but thats reality, we dont all get to do what we want to do. i want to be a doctor. i would love to be an er doctor. But that might not be in the cards so i have to apply to other options because i have to do something. i cant sit out a year im married with 3 kids to support i dont have the luxury of going all around the country or waiting a year or 2 to get an em residency. interest rates roll on loans no matter what. so like i said, i really want to do er but with my situation and repsonsibilities its plan for the worst hope for the best. that aside, me 2 er doc friends said im worryign for nothing, i scored a little below avg on step one and am about mid-upper mid of the class in terms of rank, but its been 15 years since they matched i think theyre a little aloof or perhaps naive. im jsut trying to prepare so i can make sure i have a spot in something.